hoolie
Peer Supporter
Hi supporters!
I don’t know how much background to give, except that one of these days I’ll post some success stories on here. I’ve seen TMS do some crazy things in my life, and it never ceases to amaze me. Just this week, i had an MRI to rule out some crazy neuro symptoms I had been having for months. MRI is fine, and once again I am relieved, and amazed.
So here’s my current dilemma, without even a break between. The other day (5 days ago) I lost my balance while reaching for something in a tight space in the garage and landed with my knee on the lawn mower. It didn’t hurt then really, other than a bump. Since then, my knee has been sore and tender, but I’m able to walk all over the place with some low level soreness. My brain is going nuts. Replaying the scene. Did I twist my knee? Beating myself up for rushing around and not being more careful. Obsessing. “Did I tear a meniscus? My ACL? I really did it this time. Just when i think I’m in the clear, this happens! Looks like I won’t be running for awhile! Probably surgery”
Familiar anyone?
So I’m stuck in that place i hate. Knowing -KNOWING - the power of the mind to both create convincing symptoms AND convincing arguments. I could have had a little inflammation from the fall that my brain ran away with. But the “Yeah but...” thoughts are so. Strong.
I’m also a PT. So I know too many things about anatomy
Thoughts anyone? I need a little help. My husband ROLLS HIS EYES at this now- and jokes that I’m not allowed to go to any more doctors. He’s being supportive, not a jerk, by being a voice of reason when my anxieties spike.
Thank you!
I don’t know how much background to give, except that one of these days I’ll post some success stories on here. I’ve seen TMS do some crazy things in my life, and it never ceases to amaze me. Just this week, i had an MRI to rule out some crazy neuro symptoms I had been having for months. MRI is fine, and once again I am relieved, and amazed.
So here’s my current dilemma, without even a break between. The other day (5 days ago) I lost my balance while reaching for something in a tight space in the garage and landed with my knee on the lawn mower. It didn’t hurt then really, other than a bump. Since then, my knee has been sore and tender, but I’m able to walk all over the place with some low level soreness. My brain is going nuts. Replaying the scene. Did I twist my knee? Beating myself up for rushing around and not being more careful. Obsessing. “Did I tear a meniscus? My ACL? I really did it this time. Just when i think I’m in the clear, this happens! Looks like I won’t be running for awhile! Probably surgery”
Familiar anyone?
So I’m stuck in that place i hate. Knowing -KNOWING - the power of the mind to both create convincing symptoms AND convincing arguments. I could have had a little inflammation from the fall that my brain ran away with. But the “Yeah but...” thoughts are so. Strong.
I’m also a PT. So I know too many things about anatomy
Thoughts anyone? I need a little help. My husband ROLLS HIS EYES at this now- and jokes that I’m not allowed to go to any more doctors. He’s being supportive, not a jerk, by being a voice of reason when my anxieties spike.
Thank you!