Why not address both. It will give you some great in-sites.
How did you feel about the situation when it happened?
How do you feel about it now?
Have you intellectualized or rationalized things over time? These are defenses that can “protect you” from feeling those initial emotions (in exactly the same way pain is a repression or defense mechanism). Can you see how the past events and emotions may relate to situations in your life now even if they seem unrelated on the surface? The subconscious mind does not know the passing of time.
Journalling is a lot of connecting the dots overtime, awareness, seeing patterns where we once didn’t.