So I have been going through the course work that was suggested here and I think It has been helpful. It made me realize things about my personality. I always viewed myself as the type of person that people come to when they needed something. I am reliable and pride myself on getting things done. The problem is this leaves no room for error or failure. I would not call myself a perfectionist but I do like to help people and not fail them. When I make a mistake I always feel really bad. Last night I dreamt that I got into a car accident and all I could think is that my wife is going to be very upset. The pit of my stomach ached. When I woke up and was re leaved to recall it was just a dream but I thought why do I feel this way? Why did I fear my wife like that? Was I scared she was not going to like me anymore? Did I think she would be disappointed in me? When really I know she would just be happy that I was not hurt. I need to learn that it is ok to make mistakes and nobody is perfect and it is ok to let people down from time to time, they will get over it and they will continue to like me. It's not fair to put pressure on myself to always achieve. I also have a hard time accepting help from others, in part because I have really had nobody to rely on but myself in my adult life and either I got use to it or maybe I wanted to achieve on my own without help. Sorry this is long and I might be blabbing, but I thought I would post.