I found this forum in 2016 after 10 months of suffering from migrating pain (shoulder, pelvic, hip, breast, TMJ). Prior to the onset of my pain, I had quit a job that I considered my own personal hell and I came to realize that I had PTSD from the 5 years I languished there. My husband bought me Dr. Sarno's book about 6 months into my pain spiral and it changed my life. I was able to truly kick my pain to the curb after following a program I found here that involved journaling and meditation, as well as regular exercise and healthy eating. In late 2016, I had a major setback with my mental health and ended up having to be treated with anti-depressants for a flare up of OCD. During the months it took me to get my OCD under control, I stopped taking care of my body, quit exercising, lost a lot of weight, and was having trouble sleeping. Once I stabilized, I was so happy to feel "sane" that I stayed on the anti-depressants for about 2 years. I made the tough decision to discontinue my anti-depressant early this fall. My doctor and I both felt that I did not need them any longer because I had been stable for quite some time and that the dosage was so low that I was likely experiencing placebo effect at that point. So, I stopped taking them and went about life. A little background info on me...I am a mother of two extremely busy kids, work full-time, and have a husband who travels 60% of the time for work. I would say that I am a people pleaser who almost always puts the needs of others in front of my own, so I spend all of my time shuttling my kids to their activities, taking care of the household schedule, food shopping, cooking, etc., and self-care usually doesn't make the list. There certainly is anger inside me about this, which I stuff down and try to ignore because I tell myself that I don't have time to deal with it. So, what brought me back to this place is that I am caught up in the pain cycle once again. Through this journey over the past 3 years, I have learned that, for me, I struggle to keep the balance between my mind and my body. When my mind "seems" calmer, my body betrays me. When my mind is in total chaos, my body feels fine. Right now, I am in a state of chronic, but low to moderate anxiety, so my body is flaring up. I'm thinking that maybe my low dose antidepressant took the mental edge off just enough to keep my body relatively pain free, but I am not looking to go back on medication. I am here to try to find my balance. I plan to try journaling and meditation again, and hope to find the motivation to start exercising again. Coming here is the first step, so here it goes! Thanks for listening!