About me: Female, 23, fit the TMS personality to a T. August 2018 - had cosmetic dermal fillers in my nose (non-surgical rhinoplasty). was fine for 4/5 days and then developed severe aching/stabbing/nerve-like pain for 4-5 weeks. Panicked that it was TN but as soon as I accepted it would go away eventually, it did. Sept 2018-July 2019 - completely pain free August 2019 - present. After being pain free for one year (with other minor complaints like tinnitus), pain comes back with no trigger (Except for going back to university again, like a year earlier) and it's worse. I'm still suffering currently. Had it dissolved 6 months ago but there's still some filler (hyaluronic acid) remaining (turns out they don't actually dissolve on their own, only migrate, and the dissolving enzyme has potential complications - ugh talk about feeling trapped). Pain now is confined to one side of my nose, but sometimes switches for a couple of seconds. It feels like a deep ache, sometimes sharp, almost like it's infected, but I've been on multiple courses of antibiotics and no change. It also sometimes only lasts 24hrs and vanishes, or it can last days/weeks. Sometimes the area swells, as it changes in appearance (I have two visible bones on my nose bridge which sometimes I can't see or they look more/less prominent). Plastic surgeon assures me he's never seen anything like this - can't find anyone in the same position as me online. Dan Buglio and Howard Schubiner. both told me they thought it was TMS, as did Georgie O from SIRPA. I just can't get to this place of indifference when (1) The area is swelling (2) I have no concrete proof that this isn't caused by the fillers (3) there's so much people don't know about these fillers and so this *could* be something new (4) I can't know for certain if its swelling or if it just "Feels" swollen or if there's even any filler left in the area (as the MRI requires contrast and I'm not injecting myself with anything else). I feel like I'm so stuck, and no amount of meditation or positive affirmations can help me get past the very real fear that something is on-going and wrong. There is evidence for TMS: I fit the personality traits, had it "confirmed" by a few different doctors/therapists, neurologist thinks its neural pathway pain, can't find anyone else with this chronic pain (apart from a few who had the trigeminal nerve directly damaged with the injection needle, but this didn't happen to me), the pain changes, the pain went away for a whole year, even if it is infected the nervous and immune system are basically one and the same - and it didn't get infected for a whole year and then suddenly started to which is strange, I've experienced symptom imperative - neuropathic pain in hands and feet, migraines, allodynia down my back (this only lasted 5 days) and under my chin (where I also had filler and had it dissolved) - this lasts much longer when it flares up, excruciating sharp rectum pain, tremors, tinnitus, visual snow, pure OCD intrusive thoughts, dizziness, anxiety, depression, pulsing face.... Any insight or ideas very much welcomed. How do I get past this fear without any way of obtaining real proof?