Hi, i'm new to the TMS Wiki forum. Actually i'm not that new but i'm new in signing up, I used to hang out at the TMS Help forum and occasionally come through to the TMS Wiki site but now i've decided to stick around this one as it has very valuable information and I didn't realise there was also a forum here which is great! I've recently announced myself on another thread but i'll re-introduce myself here as it seems is the correct place to be posting for now as i'm still stuck. About 2 years ago I stumbled on the TMS Wiki SEP and commenced it, I remember this is when I found Sarno and I was excited as I felt this is it, this is what I have! TMS. I still believe I have TMS but have not had any luck whatsoever in treating it. Probably because deep down I haven't really accepted it is fully TMS. When my pains get extreme is when I get desperate and start my search for help by visiting doctors, googling (yes I know googling is my enemy) etc. Anyway, I began the TMS SEP and found that I was getting a little depressed and feeling worse so I think it was around Day 10 after journalling I decided to stop as I felt this was not helping me. Now this past week i've decided to get back to it and start again, it probably wasn't a good week to start this as I have come down with a cold/laryngitis and now an eye infection (I get this eye infection at least once a year since I was 6 months old!) I'm feeling down in the dumps this week due to these symptoms and an ongoing headache that i've had for a week. So I began doing the SEP again and found that I'm starting to feel worse again? Actually I shouldn't say worse, maybe I should just say I do NOT feel any better. I thought that getting these thoughts out of my head and on to paper would help me? Why is it not working for me? I had the worst headache the other night and I was crying because I just can't help but feel like what is wrong with me? Why can't I heal? Why does this headache keep going and getting worse? Mind you this is the day that I did alot of journaling so I'm not sure if that could have contributed to the strange head pains I was having. It could even be contributed by my eye infection? (Even though I get these headaches at many other times) My usual TMS symptoms are all over back pain but usually thoracic and neck pain (I have a C5/6 disc bulge) I also get alot of headaches that are described as head pressure, fullness, sometimes my whole head feels fuzzy, my eyes hurt to move them and this exacerbates the headaches. About 10 years ago I used to get alot of headaches like this for a couple of years, then they finally stopped, now they've been back again for the past 2 years, I believe they've started again due to stress. I have 4 1/2 year old twins and since i've felt the pressures of them growing up that's when my symptoms started. I also used to get chest pains which have diminished now after getting the clear on my heart (thank God) Overall I get so many symptoms that seem to come and go but the ones that stick and remain are chronic headaches and upper back/neck pain and more recently i'm starting to feel anxious at times. Anyway, I'm just asking here is does journaling definitely help overcome TMS even when it makes you feel worse? Do I have to push through the worst to get to the better part? Do I stop? It's so hard to remain confident in the TMS diagnosis when the symptoms don't let up for a minute. I'm just not sure where to go from here? Any advice from headache people would be greatly appreciated as well as anyone else with any advice? I wish we had an Australian TMS doctor but we don't? Thank you so much in advance.