Not sure where to begin. I was pointed as this website, because several family members think it screams my name. My name is Valerie; I am a 35 yr old happily married mom of three children- ages 5, 4 and 3. We have a small farm on southern Delmarva, which consists of several species of chickens/roosters, guinea hens, and Chinese (White, and brown) Geese....along with 3 dogs, and 5 cats. I am a full time college student as well, Studying Hotel and Restaurant Management (Hospitality Mgmt/Business). I will graduate next May (2015). I am also the owner of Joyful Builder Design Services, LLC , an outdoor structural design firm that works Worldwide, designing and having built Pergolas, Gazebos, Pavilions, Outdoor Kitchens, etc. My past includes an abusive father (verbal/mental), physical abuse from two ex husbands. Had a loaded gun stuck in my face and told to abort my child while pregnant. I obliged, then instead of going to have the abortion, flew back to my family's Northern state. I have had many accidents over the years, some serious injuries. My medication list has 18 different drugs. I have been diagnosed with many different things, which I cannot stand, as I have always been one to hide it away and be the strong one....many things including Fibromyalgia, Liver Failure, Obesity, prior Bulemia, conjoined nerves in my spine, Rheumatoid arthritis, PTSD, Moderate Anxiety, Moderate Depression, asthma, COPD, IBS, Moderate Sleep Apnea, Heart Disease (CHF), high blood pressure (since age 13), high cholesterol (as of this year).....29 bone breaks, and the list can continue, but it is depressing. I do see a Therapist once a week, and a Psychiatrist twice a month. I am hoping that forcing my story out, I will stop downplaying it all, and face it head on, so I can be a better wife, mother, a happier, healthier me.