I stopped doing the SEP programme for a week because I had a business trip with 3 days of holiday. What a mistake. Not the business trip, the extra days holiday because I stayed with a friend and thought I will relax but all the time I was trying to be on my best behaviour, not to feel any pain and funny enough the pain started the day I started staying with my friend. It was a sort of the feeling you get on the first few days of a cold, the developing days when you feel no energy and just want to sleep. It continued after I came back and now it evolved into the well-known pressure in my head with nausea and tiredness, weak neck and dizziness. I tried fighting it but no luck. On top of that, my husband is going on a 2 months trip tomorrow and I'm scared of how am I going to manage all that time alone with no support even though I know it was me who overcame all the episodes, suddenly I'm overwhelmed with anxiety, desperation and fear. It has been 5 months since all of this started, when is it going to stop? When will I finally learn to deal with stress?