Introduction and questions

Hi,

Let me introduce myself: my name is Guillaume. I am 32 and I come from France. I started to feel pain on my right wrist during January 2016, and quickly after, to my left wrist. After several research, I deduced I had the Carpal Tunnel syndrome as my symptoms was similar and since I am a Computing Engineer, it was clear that it had to be with my long hours using mouse and keyboard.

I tried several stretches exercises, my ostheopath made me wrists pressure treatment but the pain did not decreased...it increased instead. The pain was not only located on the wrists and sometimes on the forearms...

I recently (this Tuesday) read the "End Carpal Tunnel Syndrome" book from Andrew Bregquist which mainly refers to TMS and Dr Sarno work. This book bowled me over ! After reading the book, I immediately knew I have TMS as this book reflects me and since I am stammerer since my childhood, I have to deal with my emotions every time in my life. It's become an evidence now !

My pain started to decrease after I read the book and it is an amazing start. It opened what I call my "Emotions Pandora Box" and many emotions started to get out of me (I cry a many times these last days) but I feel that I need it.

I started my first journaling yesterday and it was really demanding ! I cried during 20 minutes as I never did before and I was just able to wrote 5 lines about my childhood.

I feel that my life is changing in a good way and I will continue to read this forum, the TMS wiki and other books related to TMS. There is no TMS pratician in France listed in the wiki and I am no able to travel to USA or UK at the moment, so I will have to work on my TMS by myself or maybe by Skype (some TMS praticion seems to do consultation using Skype).

I have a question about a really weird feeling I had during Wednesday and Thursday nights: when I triev to sleep, I had the sensation that I wasawake and I felt my subconscious "fighting" against my TMS and I felt my eyes blinking and I felt pain on my wrists and arms. My mind reassured my subconscious by telling me that this work is good for me and it that I don't have to worry. It was a really weird sensation as I felt to be in "trance". Thursday night (after my first journaling) it was even harder and I told to myself as a child "Don't worry Guillaume !".
Do you had this sensations while sleeping when you started to work on your TMS ? I did not have this feeling last night even after a journaling session. Could it be only temporary ?

In addition, I have a question about journaling: since the journal is on paper and need to be very personal to free the emotions, how do you protect it from other peoples to read it ? How do you manage your loved one, your children, family, friends to read it since you can write very personal things about them ? Do you told them about your journal ? Is just an "heart promise" from us to never read it enough for you ?
I don't want to fall into paranoia about my journal as it can be very stressful and so not a good for my cure on my TMS. I read in another post that several members throw their journal just after journaling. I throwed my journal yesterday and I read that it is up to everyone to keep or not their journal. It might be a good solution for me. Is it effective to throw the journal and read again several times after ?

Thanks a lot to you for reading me and thank you for keeping this forum alive. This was quite hard for me to type these lines as my pain came back while writing this post.

Regards,

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Guillaume

 

Hello Guillaume!!! Thank you so much for your wonderful post. I'm sorry it took us so long for someone to respond to you. That is not the norm here.

What an incredible story. It sounds like you are overflowing with TMS healing. Sounds like you are allowing your emotions to flow

I wouldn't worry about the night fears and confusion or strange sensations. You are opening a chasm of emotions and changes to the brain can sometimes feel threatening. But this is natural and you are doing a great job of taking care of yourself by reassuring yourself that you are ok through this process.

I recommend the journaling - sounds like it's helping you - and sure throw it out after if ya like.

I also recommend affirmations and mantras. I went to a craniosacral therapist and also an internal family systems therapist and that was assistance for my TMS recovery.

Let us know how your doing soon.

LL

 

Hello Guillaume,
Also new here just like !. Welcome, and also European i see ;-)

Thnx for yourp ost. What i can recognize is that when i started (and still am) with the TMS travel, especially the travel of me and my emotions and my "past" or current emotions... is that i am very emotional too. Exploring this is also coming back at night with weird dreams and knowing that your subconcious is in a rollercoaster on that moment.

Greetings and succes!

 

Hi,

Thanks a lot for your answers ! It is not a problem if someone did not answered quickly because I just want to share my experience.

The night fears only appeared at the beginning of my TMS travel and only 2 or 3 times and did not reappeared again since.

My wrists feels really better now and I feel better in general now (on my back and my knees) and it is wonderful to see how it happens quickly. It is the beginning of my success story !

Working on my TMS helped me to understand many things about myself and I would like to send huge thanks to all of you on this forum and the TMS Wiki for this !

For example, I understood that music is a complete part of myself and I could not live without it. I am a drummer since I am young, a guitarist and more recently a bass player. I had to stop playing music due to my wrists pain and this was the bad spiral. When I started to play again after discovering about my TMS, it was so emotionally intense and I understood so many things ! I see music as a complement of my journaling and a complete part of my TMS cure. Music helps me a lot to get out my emotion and to calm down when I feel angry and stressed.

Thank for the link about affirmations lexylucy. I will read it carefully.

 

Hi, Guillaume. Welcome to the TMS forum. You came to the right place to be relieved of your pain.
The other replies are great. I would like to add that meditation helps a lot in calming and relaxing.

Meditation is a time-honored way of relaxing the mind and relieving anxiety, mental stress, headaches, and even physical pain. There are many ways to practice meditation, but many consider the most successful to be a technique called the Relaxation Response (RR).

It is a wonderful way to practice TMS Mindbody Healing because it changes harmful thinking in the subconscious mind which Dr. John Sarno says causes pain that is not caused by anything structural.

The RR, practiced once twice a day for 10, 15, or 20 minutes has a profound positive effect on the subconscious mind, relieving or curing everything from anxiety, hypertension, headaches, fatigue, nervousness, dizziness, high blood pressure, insomnia, stomach problems, all forms of pain including backaches, abdominal pain, muscle pain, neck, arm, and leg pain, and relieves side affects from cancer and AIDS.

RR is like Transcendental Meditation which is taught by TM specialists who charge hundreds or thousands of dollars. But the RR is free and you can do it yourself.

It is practiced, before a meal, and works best if not practiced within two hours after a meal. I do it in bed before arising in the morning and again in bed before falling sleep. Often, I only do it 5 or 10 minutes and it works to calm me and put me to sleep.

Just sit in a chair (or lie in bed in the morning or at bedtime), close your eyes, don’t listen to any music, and try to avoid outside noises. Let your mind think of a word such as "One " which has no real meaning or association. Or say a calming word such as “Calm” or “Peace,” or add the faith or spiritual element by saying a favorite religious word or prayer. Breathe naturally or incorporate Deep Breathing by breathing in through the mouth to inflate the stomach, suck in the stomach while holding the breath for a few seconds, then say the word when you exhale through the mouth.

Say the word silently over and over. At the end of the 10 to 20 minutes, picture and feel yourself as you were when you felt your best, and in a place where you felt that way.

When distracting thoughts arise during the RR, as they will, just tell yourself, “Oh, well,” and go back to repeating your chosen word.

My "word" is a prayer: "God loves me and is protecting me." I say it a few times and go right to sleep. If my mind wanders onto other things, I tell myself"Oh, well," and repeat my mantra silently while deep breathing.

There are several free videos on Youtube about the Relaxation Response. I especially recommend these two by Dr. Benson:

 

Hi Guillaume. Welcome! I'm so glad to hear of your success so far!
I wouldn't worry about not having a TMS practitioner in France. Many people have healed just by reading TMS literature or by working the SEP, found on this wiki.
Blessings on your journey of healing.

 

Thanks Walt for your links, I tried it this morning and it is very relaxing. I will had it to my routine. In addition, I have planned to go for a meditation course with my sister in November and I am sure it will helps me a lot.

Yes Gigi, reading TMS Wiki and reading about TMS helped me a lot and not having a TMS practitionner in France is not a problem in the end. I just have to ensure that I don't have any real physical problem with my wrists and I have to find a open minded doctor who can ensure that I don't have any physical problem. But I am not worry about this since my wrists are so much less painful since I started working on my TMS and I did not loose any strenght or ability on my wrists or my forearms.