Hi everyone, I'll start off by giving you some background information about my personality, current situation, and battle with TMS. I'll try to keep it brief. Personality and Current Situation I am a senior at an Ivy League school. I'm not saying that to brag, but to illustrate that my personality makes me prone to TMS. I'm driven, I am most productive in high-pressure work environments, I strive to improve all aspects of my life, and I hold myself to very high standards. I have high standards academically, socially, morally, spiritually - you name it. On top of all that, I have no idea where I will be after graduation, and I'm stressed about my job search and my future in general. TMS I got into weight lifting in February 2013. I was consistently getting stronger until I injured my hip adductor (call it a groin pull) on April 14, 2013. I was instructed to let it rest for 4 - 6 weeks to let it heal before lifting weights again, especially squatting. I started squatting again after 6 weeks, and there was a little pain for a couple weeks, but that subsided. A month later, once I was almost back at my pre-injury weight, my groin pain came back. It was crippling and prevented me from squatting. I took more time off from squatting, then started again, but the pain was still there. I was afraid to squat. I was afraid to go on hikes with my dad. This cycle continued for a while. I saw my primary care physician, who sent me to a surgeon to rule out a hernia, who sent me back to my primary care physician, who sent me to an orthopedist, who sent me to a physical therapist. I was told that my hips were weak. I did exercises to strengthen my hips for weeks and weeks to no avail. I wasn't squatting this whole time. I continued physical therapy until I had an emergency appendectomy in November 2013 (my appendix was inflamed - perhaps this began with TMS? I'm not sure). After my surgery, I couldn't do much physically for quite a while, so I decided to take the next 8 weeks to rest my groin and let it heal once and for all. A couple weeks ago, I tried squatting just the bar, but I was having excruciating pain in my groin. This pain made me angry that I wasn't healthy, angry that I wasn't getting stronger, and afraid of squatting, thus fueling the TMS cycle. I read most of Sarno's The Mindbody Prescription, and although I was skeptical, I decided to give it a try before I called up my physical therapist to schedule another session. Since beginning the structured educational program only a few days ago, my pain has decreased and I've been able to squat some. Day 4's question to ponder: what was the most disheartening thing a doctor has told you about your symptoms? My physical therapist said this often: I know that my groin needed to heal when I first injured it. I gave it the recommended time. It felt better. Then it felt worse. I was convinced that I re-injured it, but looking back, my brain was just picking the most believable symptom for me - the site of an old injury. I am tired of giving my groin time. I am tired of TMS controlling how my groin feels. It was injured. Now, it's being mildly deprived of oxygen. Big difference. I don't need to give it time - I need to use it! I need to squat to overcome my fear and concern. To end on a positive note, here's my favorite quote/strategy for recurrent pain: In the 20/20 interview featured in Day 1, one interviewee said that when his pain flares up, he says to himself: When I squat now, my groin starts to hurt before I even pick up the bar. BUT, when I talk to my brain, just like this guy did, I remind myself that the pain is caused by TMS, and the pain decreases enough to do the exercise. I still have pain, and I still have work to do.