Hello all. 32 yr old male signing in, olympic weightlifter (recreational). Sad to say that I'm currently losing the battle with my TMS, I feel I'm being attacked from all over the place and my defenses are growing weaker and weaker. My TMS symptoms aren't new. Since kid I had multiple problems with skin and allergies. I was always an extremely anxious kid with lots of self-confidence issues. At 20, I began having extreme pain down my right leg. I was diagnosed a lumbar hernia on L4-L5 and, not knowing better, underwent surgery. The surgery didn't help much. At that point, in despair, I got to know the work of Dr. Sarno. By proper meditation and mindset, I could reduce the sciatica symptoms to just a mild sensation. I started to do olympic weightlifting, everything seemed to be going great. Two years ago, however, I started to have this weird pain on my crotch/balls. And the most weird thing: this pain started in the middle of a 3 year break from lifting! I went to an urologist that told me that he wanted to open my ball sack just to see if something was wrong, even though the ultrasounds were clean (not kidding!). Obviously I never seen him again, and as time progressed, this pain got "fixed" in my left hip (the opposite of the sciatica one). Visited an orthopedist, scanned a X-Ray. Said it was fine. Then said one leg was bigger than the other. Then a physioterapist told me I have a pubalgia. Then OTHER physioterapist told me it's anterior pelvic tilt. Then ANOTHER one told me it's arthritis. Monday I'm going to a new orthopedist to ask him to do a CT Scan/Magnetic Ressonance. I want to make sure everything is fine before advancing to a TMS approach. Besides this, my allergies have gotten WAY worse. I have nervous pains down my both legs and arms for no reason. I have now also regular sensations of heartburn for also no reason, I stopped quitting coffee, then acid food. Nothing helped. I now also feel bloated regularly and have flatulence for no reason. Anxiety and depression settle in. My sexual drive flutuates each time more wildly, even though I'm just 30, to the point where I think I will lose eventually all pleasure in sex. So, to make things short, currently I have the following symptoms: - "Bursitis" type of hip pain in the left hip, accompanied with grinding and popping, that shoots down to the knee and to the back, sometimes to the point of being barely able to put my shoes in - Phantom sciatica pain in the other leg (had surgery in 2007) - Random nervous spikes down my arms - Hay fever/allergies that keep getting more persistent and stronger (I'm sneezing as we speak) - Random heartburn for no apparent reason - Flatulence/discomfort for no reason - Losing interest in stuff like sex, as my libido fluctuates wildly Other notes: Already removed my tonsils 3 years ago for constant infections. Already removed my appendix too, some years ago. Also removed my adenoids when I was a kid. ... and while this is happening, I still can deadlift and squat >300lbs for reps. This insane. How can a man like me that looks so solid, big and strong outside (I'm 5'10'' and 190 lbs), be so broken inside? Most people won't believe the amount of physical/psychological I'm in every single day, and still I make it to my olympic weightlifting practices. However, even though I still fight, I'm afraid I'm losing the battle. I'm getting seriously exhausted. Just had to vent. I'm pretty convinced this is TMS, and it's winning. It's winning, folks... I just can't be so broken inside, it makes no sense. Tuesday I will update you guys with news from ortho appointment. Thank you all.