I'm afraid to speak freely because I'm afraid to lie

[stevow7]

I have ocd and im afraid to lie. even if it's not a hurtful lie, I'm afraid.

what happens is that I have to overthink what I say and if I lie I have the urge to ask for forgivess and or pray, idk if I do both.

example: if I say I like Oreo and I actually don't I have the urge to pray and or ask for forgiveness and I can get in a limbo repeating my forgiveness and or prayer.

How to deal with this?

 

[miffybunny]

It sounds like this is your brains way of trying to ward off anything bad happening. It's part of catastrophising, perfectionism, and wanting to control things to feel less anxious. There's also a ton of self judgment and the "punitive super ego" at play here. Are you on any meds for OCD or anxiety? A psychiatrist and meds could be helpful with the rumination/repetitive thought patterns, in addition to psychotherapy.