I am starting the SEP tomorrow, after re-listening and re-reading Alan Gordon's page, which is profoundly helpful. I've tried starting the SEP a few times, and have a hard time picturing life without TMS. The first question, "What would a life without TMS mean to you?" brings some interesting answers. On the surface, of course, it is a simple answer. It would be wonderful. But also, I hear a voice that feels like if I lose my TMS, I will be losing something vital to myself. A voice of some kind. A cry for help. If TMS disappears, will I?