Day 36 If there is anything in my life I feel like I can’t control?

[DontStopBelieving]

Gosh, everything. My brain just thought of at least 10 things: people, family, work, thoughts, symptoms, TMS, doctor, my brain that cannot stop thinking, fear, me. This made me stop, it is me actually that I would like to control the most, my reactions, goofiness, too much talking when being nervous, laziness... All the things that I don't like about myself, the imperfections. And I thought I was recovering from TMS, this made me think there is still so much to learn and the biggest thing is accepting myself for who I am. I have been reading Brene Brown's book: The Road to Imperfections. She talks about the way we talk to ourselves and says that we would never talk like that to the loved ones. It's true. I would never say to my husband: 'you are so stupid for saying this' or 'what and idiot look at the mistake you've done', but I do it to myself and sometimes shake my head when this kind of thoughts come up, as to shake off the shame they cause. I would like to learn to accept myself, how do you do that?

 

[Walt Oleksy (RIP 2021)]

I think that learning to accept ourselves as we are, warts and all, is the secret to being a happy and healthy person. I hope the SEProgram has been helping you. You may have to continue journaling to stop bullying yourself and accept that you are imperfect and a person in progress.

 

[DontStopBelieving]

Hi Walt, the program has been helping me alongside some books that I have been reading but I feel like I'm stuck at a certain level of TMS, I improved from the first symptoms massively but I still have some symptoms lingering around and coming and going. I don't know what is it that I am not doing right or maybe there is something that I should be doing but don't. Maybe the fact that I haven't accepted some parts of myself and dealt with some of the issues might be the problem.