mkdragonfly
New Member
I am in the process of doing the structured program. I hesitate to say what day I am on, as it seems that "counting the day" seems to be counterproductive. But during my time in this program, I have twice warded off what has, in the past, been a serious back pain that usually lasts at least three weeks. I could feel it coming on, and in the past, I would have the fear - "uh-oh.. I know the pain is on it's way!" I changed that thinking to "no, it is just TMS, it is just my repressed emotions" and it went away. That was pretty cool! I have low-grade chronic pain in many areas, and the most persistent (for about nine months or so now) is a sciatic pain in my left hip and leg and down to my foot. It can move around in my leg and hip some. Sitting (as I am doing now) seems to make it worse, but for the last few weeks I have been making myself do it, especially for the journaling and reading. Most of the time I put a large flat ice pack under my rear and thighs, mainly because it numbs the pain so I don't think about it as much. I usually do this when I drive also (another big problem). I am wondering if I need to give this up? I can't seem to get a handle on this pain. Doing lots of journaling everyday.
