Avy
New Member
For the last 3-4 months (don't even wan't to count it) I developed so many new symptoms, and yes it appeared after a lot of stress. It's funny because my main problem was pelvic pain and now it pops only time to time and it's usually in the background and goes away quickly. Instead of that here comes daily headaches, stomach problems, knee pain, groin pain and some other lovely symptoms. I decided that I am gonna get better and it's not gonna stop me in accomplishing my goals. I now know that all of these symptoms are TMS because, to make this story short, I did get better and symptoms moved around but there are days when it's just too much, like today.
I find meditations help me tremendously, they usually don't take the pain away but I feel so calm and in peace with the pain that I think is a good way to go. Journaling is not something I do daily because it started to make me angry and irritating to write every day when sometimes I just didn't know what to write about.
I was wondering, how can one deal with worry about the future and pressure of making some goals successful? I decided that I'm gonna graduate finally because I'm really close and not let the pain stop me, but it's hard sometimes to work when I'm in so much pain or I'm to obsessed with worrying that completely distracts me. I admit, what I'm studying is unfortunately not something that makes me so happy, but I need a degree to find a job and that is the reality I live in. My dreams of making my hobby a job got crushed, for now at least, and it made me feel really sad but that's the way it is. But I wanna make me proud, not my family and to please them, but do it for me. I wan't to show myself that I can do it despite all of this shitstorm I'm going through. I wan't to hold diploma in my hands and get on with my life. Maybe some people can't understand it, but I have a huge blockage with all of this. How can I do this and not put pressure on myself? How can I make this easier and more smoother? I could use someones 2 cents on this. I feel like I'm running in a circle of pain and despair and honestly it really pisses me off.
Cheers
Avy
I find meditations help me tremendously, they usually don't take the pain away but I feel so calm and in peace with the pain that I think is a good way to go. Journaling is not something I do daily because it started to make me angry and irritating to write every day when sometimes I just didn't know what to write about.
I was wondering, how can one deal with worry about the future and pressure of making some goals successful? I decided that I'm gonna graduate finally because I'm really close and not let the pain stop me, but it's hard sometimes to work when I'm in so much pain or I'm to obsessed with worrying that completely distracts me. I admit, what I'm studying is unfortunately not something that makes me so happy, but I need a degree to find a job and that is the reality I live in. My dreams of making my hobby a job got crushed, for now at least, and it made me feel really sad but that's the way it is. But I wanna make me proud, not my family and to please them, but do it for me. I wan't to show myself that I can do it despite all of this shitstorm I'm going through. I wan't to hold diploma in my hands and get on with my life. Maybe some people can't understand it, but I have a huge blockage with all of this. How can I do this and not put pressure on myself? How can I make this easier and more smoother? I could use someones 2 cents on this. I feel like I'm running in a circle of pain and despair and honestly it really pisses me off.
Cheers
Avy
