c90danwaiel
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This is a short post about a humorous and slightly embarrassing worry I had last week.
For every new treatment I started for my pelvic pain, which I thought would resolve my pain, I had a worrying thought.
"What if this is a placebo?!" I thought, my heart racing. What if the anti-biotics were a placebo, and the positive effect was all in my head?! What if the week of improvement from my physical therapy was a placebo?! Looking back, I now know that those were placebos, and after a short time, they all wore off.
When I first started reading about TMS and its treatment, my catastrophizing brain kicked in. I had the same very worrying thought pop in my head, but directed towards TMS: "What if TMS is all in my head?! What if I have improvements and they're all just psychological!". I genuinely got worried. My heart was pounding.
I let that 'worrying thought' stir around in my head a while. Drank some more coffee. Walked around a bit.
And then my brain woke up and I realized that TMS was a psychologically based syndrome, and I burst out laughing. I think I might be the first person to ever panic that TMS might be psychological. Guess one part of my brain was convinced I had TMS, but another still thought the pain was physical and anything psychological didn't count.
For all the stress and anguish my brain has caused me, I can't help but laugh at it sometimes!
For every new treatment I started for my pelvic pain, which I thought would resolve my pain, I had a worrying thought.
"What if this is a placebo?!" I thought, my heart racing. What if the anti-biotics were a placebo, and the positive effect was all in my head?! What if the week of improvement from my physical therapy was a placebo?! Looking back, I now know that those were placebos, and after a short time, they all wore off.
When I first started reading about TMS and its treatment, my catastrophizing brain kicked in. I had the same very worrying thought pop in my head, but directed towards TMS: "What if TMS is all in my head?! What if I have improvements and they're all just psychological!". I genuinely got worried. My heart was pounding.
I let that 'worrying thought' stir around in my head a while. Drank some more coffee. Walked around a bit.
And then my brain woke up and I realized that TMS was a psychologically based syndrome, and I burst out laughing. I think I might be the first person to ever panic that TMS might be psychological. Guess one part of my brain was convinced I had TMS, but another still thought the pain was physical and anything psychological didn't count.
For all the stress and anguish my brain has caused me, I can't help but laugh at it sometimes!
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