Hi everyone! I'm a 46 year old guy from Spain (sorry for the grammar mistakes). I've suffered from lower back problems over the last 20 years or so. Everything started when I was 24 with a bad movement at the gym (nothing really serious...) that hurt my back. But the back pain got worse and I spent several months with a lot of pain and I visited a couple of doctors, I had a CT and an MRI done (nothing showed up at that time) and even I wore a brace to be able to walk. I got over that episode when a doctor told me to try to go back to normal life since they didn't find anything wrong in my spine. Of course nobody talked about mindbody connecction, but that worked for me - I changed my attitude about pain (I thougt it was something physical but not serious). Since then I have had some flare ups once or twice every year. Sometimes it was when I lifted something heavy, but sometimes when I was just putting my trousers on or just taking a shower... Those flare-ups would usually last a couple of weeks and I would go back to normal life after spending a month or two with a lot fear and awareness of my back. Then, 6 years ago, I had a longer flare-up with some pain in my leg. So I decided to go back to the doctor and he ordered my second MRI, although he didn't find any alarming symptoms in the examination. Actually one week after visiting the doctor I was feeling much better and when I went back to the doctor to see the MRI results I had no pain at all. But... the MRI showed some degenerative discs, a bulging disc, a herniated disc, a slight retrolisthesis... although I had no pain at that moment! So that changed again the way I was looking at my back problems. I thought , ok no more running, no more lifting heavy things... Since then I have had same flare-ups as before, like once or twice every year and I would get over in few weeks. Although I thought those back pain episodes were due to my structural problem. The big change and a new hope. Now I have been with back pain since a couple of months and it is somehow different from past times. It started with a terrible spasm in may back just when I get out of the shower. That terrible pain lasted a few days and when I tried to go back to normal life I had another terrible spasm... I've had like 6 or 7 of those spasms so I still can't do a normal life and I got a lot of fear of standing in the same place, walking or bending... But 10 days ago my sister told me about Sarno's book and although I was absolutely skeptical I started to read it. And suddenly everything made sense! My personality: perfecionist, worrier... Also the beginning of the pain: I've been playing tennis with no pain at all and then other day with an innocent movement I get a terrible spasm... And I made a connection with other health issues that I thought had no relation: allergies that came and go, I had hives for almost two years with no possible explanation by the doctor, some anxiety episodes, shoulder tendonitis, and I have knee pain for two years. So I read the book and I started doing the treatment, thinking psychologically, accepting that it is not a physical problem and overall thinking about the possible repressed emotions: I know I have a lot of rage and pressure in my life. When I just started thinking like that I suddenly got much better and even I feel less pain in my knee... (amazing!). I know I am not over it yet. I still have some fear to make some movements, especially bending or standing too long in the same place, or walking too much.... I am excited about having found this community where I can share my experience and learn from other's experiences while I keep working on getting over TMS.