I'm at the back end of the SEP program. I've taken it on wholeheartedly and believe in the theory, and every day I meditate on Dr Sarno's 12 Daily Reminders before I start doing work on the SEP (although lots of days the 12 reminders is the only work I do). However, in terms of overcoming the pain I would say it has become worse since I started, not better. For instance, I didn't have trouble walking before this, whereas now I'm verging on walking with a limp with every step I take with my left leg, as it's really tight and painful around my left hip. I'm aware that the pain gets worse before it gets better, and that some people take a lot longer to get better, e.g.. Steve Ozanich thought it took him 15 months while many others on the forums say it took them at least six months. So I imagine I'm one of these 'long haul' recoverers. Which is fine. But I can't help getting filled with doubts, usually when I just want a bloody break from the pain or when it interferes with my work (I get pain from sitting, and my work requires long periods of sitting). I'm reluctant to express these frustrations here, and especially on the SEP forum because I don't want to put doubt into the minds of the people behind me, some of whom may potentially be those people who recover quickly. But if I don't express it, I think I can feel resentment building up. If I don't say anything, couldn't it be another form of repression? And I've wondered about that - TMS is all about repressed rage. Couldn't some of the rage I'm repressing be about talking all this positive stuff on the forums (which I do), but secretly being angry at not only the program, the people who advise me that "you're doing great, everything's going to be alright" but also myself for saying one thing, but fearing another (i.e. that it's not working, it bloody hurts etc). I really don't want to appear ungrateful, there are a lot of people who I know give up their time for nothing to give advice that I am very thankful for. But this has been nagging at me. PS. It's not all negative. Even though I said the pain has gotten worse, my psychological state has definitely improved. Not so much that I am happier - that isn't my goal. Just that I'm more aware of my reactions and inner world and am starting to give myself more credit and not punishing myself for being who I am. So there is a silver lining to this cloud.