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  1. caroldiem

    caroldiem New Member

    Hi everyone,

    My name is Caroline and I am from Sydney Australia. My story is very long and thanks to youtube i came across psychocomatics youtube videos wherehe posted how with reading Dr Sarnos book Heal your back pain within 4 weeks his pain was 80% gone. I fit in the bill i am that person i have every trait for TMS i also foudn out through my functional GP that i am undermethylated i do believe there is a genetic component to this as well. I had a lot of emotional trauma it all started when i had my stillbirth my son died at 22 weeks in the womb, the birth was very traumatic a lot of things went wrong and i was all alone the emotions are still very raw that is when my chronic pain journey started I won't go into the details but i ended up falling pregnant again only 3 months after losing my son in hindsight not a smart thing to do i didn't give myself time to grieve or deal with the emotional trauma. My OB wanted to induce me on the 1st year anniversary of my son's death well u guessed it everythign went wrong and i almost lost my life. I had an emergency c section under general anaesthetic due to a botched up epidural then 2 weeks later i started vomiting up blood teh voltaren they gave me caused two bleeding duodenum ulcers i clinically should be dead i spent 5 weeks in and out of the high risk ward but i knew the whole time i wasn't goign to die even when i vomited up a bag full of blood and my hemagoblin dropped to 51 i should have gone into a coma organ failure etc but i didn't i know i have a purpose here on earth i am far from done but i don't want this chronic pain. I believe the emotional trauma was so great that it attacked my body. I have recently been diagnosed with fibromyalgia i have all teh classic TMS symptoms i know it's TMS but i am also seeing a functional Gp and doign a heap of testing just looking at leaky gut, food intolerances i already knwo i am undermethylated btu i am looking at naturally healing i don't do drugs i am way to sensitive and i believe they just make things worse. i attempted EMDR with a psychologist but it didn't work out i didn't have a good connection with the psych. Fortunately i found Hal on here i love this Wiki site and he has got me in touch with one of his colleagues where i live even though she is not a TMS practitioner she does somatic psychotherapy so i figure thats what i need to deal with the emotional trauma PLUS i have just ordered Dr Sarnos's book healing back pain any advice you ahve for me would be greatly appreciated i really want to get better but i accept that it does take time at the moment it's the fatigue getting me down
  2. Steve Ozanich

    Steve Ozanich TMS Consultant

    Caroline you have many TMS markers. You reminded me of my own battle with TMS over times of pregnancies and childbirth, and spinal blocks. Those were times from hell.

    There are no genetic components to TMS, that's already been well-established. People heal regardless of genetics. TMS is wholly an environmental beast.

    All the symptoms you mention here have been shown to be part of the TMS process. So you've come to the right place through your conclusions. If you believe you have TMS you will heal. The belief I'm talking about is at the unconscious level. Belief at the conscious level means little, but it's a start.

    Good luck,

  3. Walt Oleksy (RIP 2021)

    Walt Oleksy (RIP 2021) Beloved Grand Eagle

    Hi, Caroline, and welcome to TMSWiki and all your new friends here.
    Many of us, like me, have healed through total belief in our symptoms of pain or headaches
    or anxiety being caused by TMS repressed emotions or our perfectionist or "goodist" personalities.

    You will find Dr. Sarno's book, Healing Back Pain, to be a mental wonder drug.
    I also hope you will buy a copy of Steve Ozanich's book, The Great Pain Deception,"
    in which he tells about his TMS journey to healing.

    You've gone though a lot with the problems of childbirth. It isn't easy, but you need to
    forgive everyone including God and yourself for what has happened so far.
    Believe in TMS but also pray to God to help you with a successful delivery in the future.
    Don't give up on that. You are going to be a happy, healthy mother soon, and so will
    your baby be healthy. God does not want you to be in pain. That's the title of a new TMS book
    I've written with another who posts regularly here, Herbie. We tell of our journeys to TMS healing
    and Herbie adds some wonderful techniques that can help expand what you read in the
    Sarno book.

    You're on your way to a new and happy life.
  4. caroldiem

    caroldiem New Member

    Hey Steve and Waltthankyou so much for your messages. Always suffered from high anxiety, over worrying i am a perfectionist, I am a people pleaser i have every single characteristic of a person who is prone to TMS. Walt it's true inside i have soooooo much rage i am so angry at soooooooo many people and very saddddd. The interesting thing my pain levels are only at a 1 or 2 so i am still functioning although it's a challenge.
    Surely thought looking at my bodies vitamin and mineral deficiencies can't hurt or the fact that i am under methylated changing my diet and taking some supplements do u guys think none of this is necessary and it's all just in the unconcious mind?????

    Walt fortunately i am done with having babies i have 2 children on earth and one in heaven that's good enough for me so i am not concerned about that i agree God doesn't want me to be in pain that's what i think i could have died but i didn't surely he has a purpose for me here on earth I am young only 34 so in teh beginnign i had a lot of fear and anxiety and my pain was a lot worse now the fear is subsiding i still have those questions u know will the pain ever go away very bad way of thinking i know. It's interesting I have suffered from TMS when i was younger for a lot of my adolescence i had a lot of tummy pain and i vomited a lot, pain wasn't severe enough to stop me from being a teenager went to the specialists found out i had the helicobacter bug used antibiotics bugs went away. about 6 months after the tummy pain returned so i went back to the specialist we did all the tests again and he turned to me and said there is nothing wrong with you. I went home and said to my mum i still have the pain it doesn't make sense she said to me you heard the specialist there is nothing wrong so i believed there was nothing wrong and guess what over time the pain just dissapeared now i call that TMS

    My husband also suffers a lot from back pain and i know it's also TMS he is very much liek me but he was molested as a child and i believe that is a big reason for his TMS i will make him read Dr Sarno's book as well. It's interesting my parents also have chronic pain my mum has had pain most of her life it's all TMS they also had very traumatic childhoods they do ignore the pain but they can't sleep etc my husband also ignores the pain but he still has pain
    Last edited: Apr 30, 2014
  5. Steve Ozanich

    Steve Ozanich TMS Consultant

    It can't hurt to look at your diet and deficiencies, it's good to be balanced and healthy. But that has nothing to do with pain.

    It reminds me of the time I followed some MD on a show who was promoting his book on pain. He said he had figured out the cause of many of the pain syndromes. I thought "this ought to be interesting," I'm going on next with my own magic bullet. He said that chronic pain was coming from milk; more specifically the casein in it. He claimed in his book that if he could get his patients off of casein that they healed.

    So when I got on live the host asked me if he was correct. I told her that I wouldn't close my mind to any possibility, but none of the people Dr. Sarno saw, or any of the other TMS docs, or none that I have ever seen, have ever needed to get off milk in order to heal.

    I will say, though, that it appears clear that Aspertame is a pain in the Aspertame. The evidence is mounting that some people have severe reactions to it, not only in pain syndromes, but neurologically. It appears to be dangerous. So, chemicals in food may matter...BUT..I would add that I believe most of those people reacting to substances are still experiencing TMS. Our emotional state has a powerful effect on how we react to substances like foods or pollens, and likely chemicals. Several have told me they lost their chemical sensitivity once they healed from TMS.

    So Dr. Sarno continues to be proven to be the man.

  6. caroldiem

    caroldiem New Member

    Thankyou Steve i have just ordered your book i can't wait to read it :) dancea
  7. Walt Oleksy (RIP 2021)

    Walt Oleksy (RIP 2021) Beloved Grand Eagle

    It does seem that childhood traumas can stay with us, repressed, until we discover what they are.
    And new studies day we can genetically inherit stresses, anxieties, TMS, from our parents and
    grandparents. Much of it can stem from not forgiving. We can start the end of the profess by
    forgiving others, and ourselves. It doesn't have to be in person or a phone call or email or letter.
    It can just be ourselves talking to ourselves, forgiving others and ourselves.
  8. caroldiem

    caroldiem New Member

    How very true Walt i have always struggled with forgiveness i seem to harbour everything and i remember everything liek it was yesterday i really truly want to forgive but i don't know how it seems i can't seem to let the hurt go. I am doing reiki and somatic psychotherapy to help you i think i am one of those people that need that extra help
  9. Walt Oleksy (RIP 2021)

    Walt Oleksy (RIP 2021) Beloved Grand Eagle

    Caroldiem, maybe think of it this way... You would want to be forgiven if you did something bad to someone.
    You would hope they would relieve you of the pain and guilt.
    You case may be very very hard to forgive, but also look at it this other way...
    Forgiving will be the best thing you can do for yourself.
    Forgiving bring peace to those who forgive. Then your hurt will go.

    The other person may not deserve it, but forgive them. Let the Lord judge or punish them.
  10. Walt Oleksy (RIP 2021)

    Walt Oleksy (RIP 2021) Beloved Grand Eagle

    Maybe even just say out loud when no one is around,
    "I forgive you, even though you don't deserve it, you S.O.B.!"
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  11. caroldiem

    caroldiem New Member

    ehehheeheh love that Walt i will be saying those exact words out loud.

    I have just realised Acupuncture was relieving me of my symptoms i stopped it a few weeks ago my pain is the worst it has ever been now i understand why people with fibromyalgia can be bed bound. I have to push through for the kids. Steve it's just hit me you had fibromyalgia the incurable disease it's sooooooooooooooo baddddddddddd i have that tingly nerve pain from head to foot, your book hasn't arrived yet any tips while i wait???
  12. Steve Ozanich

    Steve Ozanich TMS Consultant

    Carol of the Belles, I was never diagnosed with fibro. They tried for many years to label me with that lie, but I never had fatigue. So they couldn't pull me into the ring of fear.

    My quick tip is that you have to stop acupuncture and everything else. These are placebo treatments, if you believe it works then it works, but not because it's doing anything, just like with surgery.

    All the folks labeled with fibro are healing, if they accept TMS and do the work to heal. It's curable in the sense that there's nothing wrong with your body to begin with, if you have TMS. Fibro is a manmade fiction. The proof is in the healings.

    Good luck with my book. Take your time reading it, about a month or so, and do the work, don't just read and hope to be healed. How long does it take to arrive from Amazon? I could have delivered it in person by now. G'day mate.

  13. caroldiem

    caroldiem New Member

    I am listening to the song Carol of the Belles it's so goooodddddd :)

    I'll be honest my fear has really subsided i was very afraid in the beginning but now no. I have stopped acupuncture permanently because yes i came to the realisation it's just a placebo the only thing i am pursuing is the mineral deficiency nutrition path but not to cure the pain that's just for my overall health and wellbeing. I have come to realise the key to getting rid of the pain is accepting TMS which i 100% believe i have on a conscious level. I agree there is nothing wrong with my body i know that i have had the cat scans and the MRI's the endoscopies and colonoscopies nothing was foundddddddd at the pain clinic they just said we don't know what is causing your pain and the functional GP i saw said Fibro is just a label means nothing :) . I ordered it from the Book Depository because we get free shipping to Australia the oonly downside i have to wait a whole 10 dayssssss. So who's book do i read first Dr Sarno's Heal your back pain or yours Steve???

    Really appreciate your words of wisdom

    G'day mate have you been DownUnder?? If not you should come down you would love it
  14. Steve Ozanich

    Steve Ozanich TMS Consultant

    Believing that you have TMS at the conscious level is the first step, but it doesn't stop the symptoms until you believe it at the unconscious level. Your deeper brain is the thing that makes the change. So you're going in the correct order. You must stop acupuncture and all other forms of treatment, then begin to pour in accurate information into your deeper aspects to enact change. This takes time so don't push healing too fast. Allow for healing, don't force it.

    You can read Healing Back Pain first or mine I don't think it matters. Mine appears to be the complement to HBP but it was meant to be the compliment.

    I have never been down under but I'm making more friends down there every month. I would love to visit one day to see the good folks, and of course the toilets flush backwards.

  15. Walt Oleksy (RIP 2021)

    Walt Oleksy (RIP 2021) Beloved Grand Eagle

    That's a major step forward toward healing, accepting that you have nothing structurally wrong and
    that the fibro or whatever it's called is from TMS emotions.

    It sometimes takes the unconscious mind to grasp it, that you believe in TMS, and stop the pain.

    Too bad we can't just send our unconscious an email that we get it, and now it should.
  16. caroldiem

    caroldiem New Member

    eheheheh I agree Walt it would be soooooooooooooo much easier but oh no they want us to work for it :)
    I'll start with HBP first :)

    Fortunately for me i love reading thanks so much for the wonderful support your both amazing who created this Wiki??
  17. Walt Oleksy (RIP 2021)

    Walt Oleksy (RIP 2021) Beloved Grand Eagle

    We can thank Forest for creating the TMSWiki.org and he has great help from others such as Becca,
    Herbie, and everyone who posts including Steve Ozanich.

    I hope you keep journaling to discover your TMS repressed emotions that probably go back to childhood.

    Practice deep breathing and meditation and LAUGH. I find laughing helps a lot to relieve anxiety and pain.

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