Without going too deep into my personal story, a couple years ago I healed myself of debilitating back pain through reading Dr Sarnos work about TMS. I felt so in my power that I was sure I would never have to deal with physical pain again. However this year I started getting chronic headaches on the right side of my head that were so intense and would last up to 2.5 months. Ive had migraines my whole life so I naturally assumed this must be physical and I fell off my progress and out of my power. I was back in the loop for the last 8 months. I noticed that the head pain would manifest most when I had plans I was really looking forward to, like a self-sabotaging pattern. I could feel great all week and as soon as the weekend came around and I was excited to do something (even if it was as simple as enjoy my time off work at home by myself) the headache would start and I was in pain all day. This pattern happened so many times..I fell so depressed because of this and developed a belief that "Im not allowed to have fun." It felt like everyone around me could feel light and free and enjoy fun and I just had to suffer. I came to my senses and realized this is TMS in another form. Im currently still doing work but Im finding Im struggling the most to let go of the belief that I can't have fun, and the fear that Im going to get this head pain as soon as Im looking forward to something.. even though I know its just the TMS. Ive tried to do work around deserving to have fun, but Im really curious if anyone has experienced something similar even after the knowledge that its the TMS. Ive even uncovered why I manifested the first migraine I had when I was 5, and this aftermath belief is still hanging around!