Beawake
New Member
I really need help in becoming outcome independent?
i spend so much of my my day thinking about how i did well on a good day or what proof i have and how i don't need to do anything when im sitting around in pain , that its okay, but this thinking has become automatic and i know its not helping, i try to watch the thoughts go by but i find that so hard, i don't know what to do most o the day as im stuck in with my child and i cant do my drawing or crafts because he wont let me
once i managed to be outcome independent and my symptoms went or two hours, i didnt realsise i was doing OI,i focused on welcoming the fear and sensations and told my brain we would only do what we felt safe doing. but since then i can't seem to achieve that, i just feel so fucked up by my thoughts.
i try thinking o what i see smell and that feels hard doing it all day, im sure this is not supposed to be as hard as I've created it.
my son will be 2 this year and i want his mummy to be happier and not crying everyday
id do anything to just feel confident, ive been doing this a year and still have no energy to live my life, and flares happen every few days, like if i have a few better days then bam its high and im scared again, this is the pattern
i spend so much of my my day thinking about how i did well on a good day or what proof i have and how i don't need to do anything when im sitting around in pain , that its okay, but this thinking has become automatic and i know its not helping, i try to watch the thoughts go by but i find that so hard, i don't know what to do most o the day as im stuck in with my child and i cant do my drawing or crafts because he wont let me
once i managed to be outcome independent and my symptoms went or two hours, i didnt realsise i was doing OI,i focused on welcoming the fear and sensations and told my brain we would only do what we felt safe doing. but since then i can't seem to achieve that, i just feel so fucked up by my thoughts.
i try thinking o what i see smell and that feels hard doing it all day, im sure this is not supposed to be as hard as I've created it.
my son will be 2 this year and i want his mummy to be happier and not crying everyday
id do anything to just feel confident, ive been doing this a year and still have no energy to live my life, and flares happen every few days, like if i have a few better days then bam its high and im scared again, this is the pattern