Mloo119
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I broke and displaced five transverse processes (L1-4 and T12) and had two inguinal hernias that opened further from the fall and required surgery. I was bleeding internally and had a lot of soft tissue damage and had very poor care at the hospital, which included waiting in the ER for four hours, being treated disrespectfully and not being diagnosed initially with internal bleeding or the hernias, which extended the healing process of my structural integrity. It took a year and a half to finally have all of my parts and pieces back in order. It's been two and a half years since I fell.
In the past two and a half years, I've worked with eight medical professionals that helped me overcome my structural problems to a point that there is no longer any serious issue with structural integrity. I still deal with pain on a daily basis. My pelvic floor muscles and a referred shooting pain have not improved noticeably since I fell. I get terrible hypertonicity in the pelvic floor with lifting, intercourse and stress. My shooting pain occurs pretty strictly when I side bend, which is why I have been hell bent on finding the cause, the reason; making logical, structural sense of the imprisonment I feel, caused by my limitations.
I feel fairly confident that I suffer from TMS. Even though I feel hopeful, I have my doubts that I can really make a huge difference with just my mind. I listened the pelvic pain webinar yesterday and it really lifted me out of a funk and gave me some hope. I was immediately able to relate to the personality traits and come up with examples of inconsistency of my symptoms. I've been through the cycle of hoping and being disappointed quite a few times. Buying in fully with my mind will be one of my greatest barriers. Living my life and feeling like I don't have control of my pain makes me feel crazy and weak and angry.
Life without TMS for me would be giving me back my freedom. I've been in a personal prison since I fell and it's time I opened the unlocked door and ran, jumped, yelled and experienced joy like I used to do before I was so angry that I was injured. I wish the best to all of you who are struggling. Thanks for reading.
In the past two and a half years, I've worked with eight medical professionals that helped me overcome my structural problems to a point that there is no longer any serious issue with structural integrity. I still deal with pain on a daily basis. My pelvic floor muscles and a referred shooting pain have not improved noticeably since I fell. I get terrible hypertonicity in the pelvic floor with lifting, intercourse and stress. My shooting pain occurs pretty strictly when I side bend, which is why I have been hell bent on finding the cause, the reason; making logical, structural sense of the imprisonment I feel, caused by my limitations.
I feel fairly confident that I suffer from TMS. Even though I feel hopeful, I have my doubts that I can really make a huge difference with just my mind. I listened the pelvic pain webinar yesterday and it really lifted me out of a funk and gave me some hope. I was immediately able to relate to the personality traits and come up with examples of inconsistency of my symptoms. I've been through the cycle of hoping and being disappointed quite a few times. Buying in fully with my mind will be one of my greatest barriers. Living my life and feeling like I don't have control of my pain makes me feel crazy and weak and angry.
Life without TMS for me would be giving me back my freedom. I've been in a personal prison since I fell and it's time I opened the unlocked door and ran, jumped, yelled and experienced joy like I used to do before I was so angry that I was injured. I wish the best to all of you who are struggling. Thanks for reading.
