I am on day 1 of the SEP. I am diving in. Thank you for listening. Here is my story. About 10 years ago, I started developing terrible pain my pain in my heel. The pain came out of nowhere during a vacation I was taking right before starting a new job. It just showed up one day, invited itself in, and never left. I did not injure my foot doing something specific. I cannot recall a physical event that brought on the pain. I wasn't running, lifting, or twisting anything. I thought that maybe my shoes were worn out, and that maybe, that brought on the pain. My uninvited guest has been living with me for a decade and has never left. Over the past 10 years, I have tried all sorts of therapies for my foot including: anti-inflammatory medication, seeing a podiatrist, soft custom orthotics, hard custom orthotics, 2 cortisone shots, physical therapy, shockwave therapy, ultrasound therapy, osteopath, massage, the Strasbourg sock, never walking barefoot. Nothing has worked. Any relief has been temporary. I even got an MRI of my foot and saw an orthopedic doctor. The MRI revealed nothing wrong. The doctor sent me on my way. Ice, rest, etc. Over time, the pain spread to my hips, calf, and lower back. Eventually, I gave up, stopped wearing my orthotics, and started walking barefoot. The pain got less severe. It never went away. I cannot wear dress shoes, or the pain gets too intense. So I wear a suit and Asics to work. It looks ridiculous, but I don't care. I resigned myself to the fact that I would live with chronic pain for the rest of my life. I never stopped physical activity, but I never was really active either. Four years ago, my colleague encouraged me to join a gym with him, and since them, I have been going 5 days a week, doing a mix of weight training and cardio. I NEVER ran however, due to my heel pain. I did everything else. My pain was always there, but I learned to live with it. A year ago, I started developing pain in my shoulder and trapezius. I thought I injured myself weight training. So I rested a couple of weeks, got a massage, had an osteopath treatment. The pain never went away. So I stopped weights and only did cardio. The pain just got worse and worse. I went for deep tissue massage, osteopath, and physio. I replaced my mattress and pillow. I started sleeping only on my back. Recently, the pain spread to the rest of upper and lower back. It moves around. It always there, and is exhausting. A few months ago, an acquaintance saw me clutching my back. He told me that he had had very bad back pain and that he got rid of it after reading this book.. He briefly explained the concept to me, never mentioning the author, or TMS by name. He just told me he had to face his demons, and his rage, and that once he did, he felt better. Although I was not closed to the idea of the mind-body connection, I thought to myself, "I don't have any clear rage issues!" This can't help me. I am pretty in tune with my feelings. I don't have financial problems. I have a successful career. This cannot help me. I dismissed him. I just turned 40. I thought to myself, “well this is what getting old is”. Things just hurt. They hurt for no reason. I got scared. If I feel like this when I am 40, what will I feel like when I am 50, 60 or 70. I will surely be bed ridden. I was on the internet a week ago and stumbled upon Dr. Sarno and his theories. It led me to the 20/20 piece. Something in my mind clicked. “I wonder if this is the stuff my acquaintance was talking about?” I called him the next day and he said, YES, SARNO. I got the book instantly and devoured it. I found myself on almost every page. The areas that hurt, the common diagnosis and treatment, the personality type: Perfectionist. Check. Do-gooder. Check. Achiever. Check... I said to myself, I will give this a shot. I have nothing to lose except the thing only thing worth losing, the pain. Do I believe the message? YES! Has it sunk in? NO! I am fearful. Fearful that I will fail at it. Fearful that it won't work for me. Fearful that I will be doomed to a life of pain, because at this point, there is nothing else left to try. I found this forum and I am very thankful. I poked around, read a few success stories. Many people are in far worst pain than me. They have suffered more than me. They have had bad things happen to them in their childhood. They have been cured. It gives me hope for the first time in a long time. I found the SEP, and I am starting Day 1. I read the first success story. I sobbed as I read it. I don't even know why. It helps to feel that you are not alone.