I'm on day four of the structured educational program, and I'm having a hard time finding the will to keep going in my TMS journey. I consciously fully believe that the pain is caused by TMS, but the pain hasn't seemed to abate at all. I read a lot of success stories about people who developed pain after dealing with lots of stress. However, I can't identify any real stressors in my life besides the physical sensations caused by TMS. I have no children, more than enough money to cover my expenses, and my work environment is very laid back. Some people say that they can "see themselves on every page" of Dr. Sarno's book, but I can't even identify the emotions that I'm repressing. I guess I don't know how to address the anger directed at my physical ailments without believing that something is wrong with me. My knees hurt, my muscles spasm, and my limbs have a constant tremor. I know TMS is a psychological problem, but it's hard to shake the paranoia that my brain is falling apart. I am still waiting on The Great Pain Deception to come in the mail, and I'm hopeful that it may contain some helpful tools for keeping up hope.