Hi, Billie. I'm sorry you are in pain and that your partner left the way he did. But you are not in isolation... as Ian says, we here at the TMS forum are a very caring community and you can talk to us through postings anytime.
You might also watch some of the videos on Youtube dealing with TMS and healing.
I spent a week in London some years ago and loved it, but never saw rural UK. I bet it is lovely and peaceful, from the movies I've seen. Try to enjoy it for yourself and for me!
And what do you like to do that relaxes you. Try to do more of it. Share that with us if you want. I'm a writer... my books are at
www.walteroleksybooks.com. You might enjoy THE MURDER OF THE MONTH CLUB, a humorous murder novel about some senior citizens in a New England village.