I started working with a TMS therapist about 6 weeks ago and started doing some journaling from the structured program as well as working on Alan's program. So far, I've been able to dig up some of my repressed emotions, which is course is uncomfortable but amazing at the same time. The one thing I was feeling last week was, anger that I wasn't one of the fortunate TMS'ers that was able to read one of Sarno's books and be pain free shortly after. I have a pelvic pain condition which causes pain when there is pressure put anywhere on my sacrum, sit bones, back of legs and genitals and let me tell you, having genital/sitting pain is the worst thing I've ever experienced as a TMS'er. I've had migraines, SI joint, low back pain, etc but nothing compares to it, so needless to say there is a lot of fear associated with it. I use a cushion to sit and even then I cannot sit for longer than 20-30 without pain, I stand a lot and social life and dating have been out of the question for the past 2 years. I want my life back and I'm trying to take it back as we speak. While speaking to my therapist this afternoon, she mentioned I may want to start trying some things that would be painful and uncomfortable to help battle TMS. So things like not using my cushion and doing things regardless of if it's painful or not. I do sit on a everyday basis and push my limits in that way but not aggressively as if I don't have pain, so tonight I decided I would take control and drive to go get myself dinner with no cushion. I did it, and it wasn't too bad. I came home and for the first time in a VERY long time, I sat on my couch and ate my dinner.. I did that as well. That was about as much as I wanted to push myself, so since then I've been laying on my couch in my normal position watching movies and oh boy am I in PAIN. I'm proud of myself, but I don't know if I can hang with this on a daily basis and not give up. I don't know if I can function like this. Curious if anyone has tips or tricks? The pain is excruciating Thank you in advance!!