five minutes of reprieve and that is all

[fraggle]

I'm up to day 23 of the TMS program & my lower back pain has been intensifying & so too has my negative thoughts, it's like a cycle that I can't break. However!..... I was journalling the other day and had a bit of a cry afterwards, then I experienced my ever-present back pain vanish!!! It was so beautiful, i'd forgotten what pain-free felt like. Unfortunately it was short-lived, and a few minutes later it returned with a vengeance. I was so frustrated & dejected. I'm desperately trying to figure it out. I want that beautiful pain-free feeling back so badly!

 

[Time2be]

Good! Something good happened! Maybe you could give yourself a bit more space, not pressing so much? You will get rid of the pain, for sure. Try to have faith in the process and not measure success all the time!

 

[rain]

I'm up to day 23 of the TMS program & my lower back pain has been intensifying & so too has my negative thoughts, it's like a cycle that I can't break. However!..... I was journalling the other day and had a bit of a cry afterwards, then I experienced my ever-present back pain vanish!!! It was so beautiful, i'd forgotten what pain-free felt like. Unfortunately it was short-lived, and a few minutes later it returned with a vengeance. I was so frustrated & dejected. I'm desperately trying to figure it out. I want that beautiful pain-free feeling back so badly!

Thanks for noticing that reprieve (brief as it was) and for doing what I think was the best thing to do in that circumstance: cry. I don't think words exist to fill that space that tears can so wonderfully occupy. Hope you have more of those reprieves.