Heya, Angelic, I hope you weren't nocebo'd by Ms. Ruby! For me and for a lot of people, TMS healing involves a good deal of learning to better understand what is going on below the conscious layer. Dr. Sarno says to think emotionally. If something is going on in your body then there is also something going on in your mind. Any idea what that might be? Any idea of how you might make peace with that and still get the benefits of participation?
It might be that the forum just isn't for you. TMS Healing is often about learning to take the best care of yourself (by finding a passion, changing how you talk to yourself, being mindful, accepting your emotions or a million other things). If being kind to yourself means stopping the program, I'd love to see you benefit from it, but maybe a different path is better for you.