I think my TMS first started about 5 years ago. I had some concussions and then had weird head tingling, vision problems, and headaches. I would get concussion symptoms if even a pice of paper grazed my head. It then moved to some stomach issues, and finally switched to weird nerve sensations in my feet. That was steady for a couple years and then in August of 2018 the feet became worse when I thought I had an accident. At that time I also started having back and butt pains with the feet sensations. I have experienced the symptom imperative in many places, but the feet problems always stay. I have also had episodes that I swore were extinction bursts but then the symptoms still don’t go away. There have been a few times they seemed like they were fading or disappeared for a short time (10 min) but they always stay. During periods of sickness, the symptoms in the feet have faded or disappeared, but as soon as I recover from sickness, they return. The only real change is that the feelings in the feet keep changing. I still have conditioned responses even though I know my symptoms are not the result of a physical injury. I get attacks in the back and butt whenever I am standing for long periods, in one-on-one conversations, or when shopping for extended periods. I have encountered a new symptom after each time I play basketball (my favorite thing to do that I had stopped doing because I had thought I had physical problems). And then that symptom will disappear after a week or so. For months I have been getting this overwhelming feeling of emotion like I want to cry (for some unknown reason), but can’t either because of the timing (it wouldn’t be appropriate), or I just can't seem to release the feeling. I have returned to all normal activity and I don’t avoid things anymore or think of myself as injured. Despite all this, since becoming aware of and accepting that it is TMS, my symptoms have seemed to worsen and cover a greater area. I have also been plagued with intrusive, negative thoughts. I have overcome my old anxious thoughts and behaviors and don’t worry about things. I also have reduced much of my mental chatter. But now I have these intrusive thoughts that seem to enter on their own. I have gone over all possible sources of rage from things in my past, my parents and siblings, and my current relationships (wife, child), and with work and finances, and aging. I also have a lot of negative feelings about myself and have examined those. There are a number of things that I find myself angry about. One of them is work. I used to love my job but made a switch to a different setting and now I don’t love it. Is it something where I need to switch my job to get better? People say the rage is from something that you don’t know, but I really can’t think of a single thing that I haven’t already looked at. I just don’t understand why things haven’t gotten better and what I am doing wrong. After reading Steve O.'s book, I think I might be a troubled healer. Do people in that category heal? I would greatly appreciate any advice. Lastly, I have had an increase in my PSA level and wonder if anyone else has experienced that with TMS.