I've suffered with 'fibromyalgia' with intermittent severe and painful muscle spasms plus chronic fatigue for over 20 years. I've also been suffering with pudendal neuralgia-like pelvic pain for the last three years or so. I truly believe that my symptoms are TMS. With immersing myself in TMS understanding and methods I've discovered that I really pretty much experience life as being quite a 'hair shirt'...so many things irritate me on a daily basis, from moment to moment. I think a big part of my 'dis-ease' with life is that I've never really found a passion for anything to lose myself in (hobbies or such like) even though I have experimented and tried many different things. I also never found a job or had a career that I liked, let alone loved. I believe this is because my childhood sucked the 'me' out of me...I was an only child and my parents treated me as a nuisance; they required me to behave like an adult so that they were troubled by me as little as possible. The showing of emotion wasn't tolerated and my emotional wants and needs weren't catered for. I turned to food for solace from a young age (probably from the age of 6 or 7) and have had a battle with comfort eating for all of my adult life because it was the only thing that ever soothed me and helped me cope with the stresses in life. In recent years though I have controlled my eating and shed 70lb in the process and self-soothe in other ways, but it hasn't been enough to reduce my pain and other symptoms. Although I'm finding some of the mind/body techniques that I'm doing good, e.g. yoga nidra, journaling and 'Taking in the good' as recommended by Rick Hanson, it all nevertheless feels like such a giant up hill struggle to change my brain to become 'happy' enough with life in order to become well and pain free. My sense of humour is intact, so I do find some things funny and laugh and have some enjoyment in life - I therefore don't believe that I'm clinically depressed. However, I'm now almost 61 years old and I feel that time is running out for me. Any helpful thoughts or suggestions regarding my situation would be gratefully received. Many thanks in advance.