TMS was something I first about 2 years ago now. At that time I been suffering from low back pain for 3 or 4 years and right wrist pain for about 2 years. I read the mind-body prescription and found it interesting, but did not find it helped my symptoms. I do meet all the personality traits though and have a long history of mysterious pains that come last for several years that come and go. These usually come up after some minor injury and persist way longer than they should. Right now I feel completely hopeless. I had a surgery on the right hand 2 years ago and have been seeing various physiotherapists and it is worse than ever. Last week out of the blue and old foot injury started hurting again, it started when I wore a pair of uncomfortable shoes for 20 minutes. On the bright side the back pain has gone away. I know none of these pains makes any sense but I do not know what to do about it. I also have pain in the bit of a deformity in my left thumb. Writing with either hand now is painful and I feel entirely hopeless. I have a 5-month-old baby girl and I'm currently in medical school and I have no idea how I am going to be able to get through the program or be the father I want to be with this worsening pain. About a month ago I decided to commit to the idea that was on the head and tried to take up tennis. 2 sessions left me with intense wrist pain that lasted for 2 weeks. My wife and baby are visiting her parents for a week and I have spent the last 2 days crying. I usually hold this in when they are here but with open here all of this hopelessness feels overwhelming. I used to be an avid weightlifter, mountain biker and enjoyed playing video games with friends. I cannot do any of these things anymore. I keep trying to find ways to work around injury and stay active but it seems like every time I do, something else starts hurting to prevent me from doing the modification. I feel like I am going insane, this has been going on for years. I am writing all this with dictation software as typing is painful. A life without TMS would be just getting my life back. I feel like I do not even know who I am anymore, most of my hobbies that used to bring me joy for now inaccessible to me. I feel so hopeless with my life. I feel like I could take better care of my daughter and be more present with my life. I feel if I might be able to start enjoy my life again. I tick essentially all the boxes for personality traits that are prone to TMS. I have had mysterious pains come and go throughout my whole life. It seems perfectly reasonable to me that is what I have. At the same time but I tried to accept this and play tennis my pain got incredibly worse. I do not know for was too much too soon, but it does create doubt in me. We will I guess that is it, this is my first time trying something like this and it feels good to get it out. If anyone got to the end of this thanks for listening.