I hate posting something negative or non supportive. But to be honest some days I just feel like I should accept my symptoms as they are and the fact that maybe they'll just always be with me. Mine all started right after a miscarriage and I know there were a lot of emotions surrounding that. I'm aware that I have a lot of anger and sadness over a lot of pregnancy losses and I felt that connection right away. I used to have a lot of pelvic pain, and I am grateful that I have so much less. At one point I was nearly debilitated. I do still have some muscle issues in that area and sometimes they come and go. I guess what drives me the most crazy though is feeling like I have to go to the bathroom all the time or feeling like I have a UTI when I don't. I suppose, like pain, feeling like you got to pee all the time is very distracting. I guess I just wanted to vent about feeling stuck in this ugly dark place. Physically, outside of the pelvic issues, I'm really lucky that I just feel awesome. I have lots of energy and I have a really good joints. And after reading many posts on here I know what a blessing that can be. I'd like to change jobs I'd like to look into other options for maybe adding to my family one day. But I'm scared to do those things now. And I also give myself a lot of negative self-talk because I feel like I shouldn't do those things unless I'm in a much much better condition. Well, thanks for " listening" quote.