I have a lot of typical manifestations of fear of pain, like "Oh, my ankle hurts, maybe I did something to it and it will feel awful for days..." But I noticed today that I also have an odd one that is a bit of a flip side of slightly more caution than normal. Since the TMS symptoms started after an injury - and the injury was itself actually fairly bad the first time - I find that I often run tiny simulations of how I could end up hurting myself again if I'm not careful, or if I hadn't been careful, or if I hadn't been able to grab that bar on the bus in time, or... I think I must have been running these simulations ever since I first started walking around after the original injury (Jul 2012), and I either just didn't notice them before because they were so automatic, or they were embedded in conscious full thought processes about how to position my feet correctly. But now they're really weird to experience - like, I'll step into a small depression with my right foot because I'm being absentminded, and I think "oh gosh, thank goodness I didn't step in that with my left foot, I could have injured it again". Or I decide not to walk on the edge of the sidewalk, and not just "oh, I'll be cautious of the edge" but like I almost see myself falling off. Or I do step funny on my left foot but it feels fine, and I think "oh man, so glad that was OK, but that could have been so bad" and I have kind of a mental vision of if I'd fallen or whatever. It's pretty awful; I don't know if my mind's doing it because the regular fear wasn't working or what. A kind of extinction burst of fear, maybe? My progress is interesting. I walk 3/4 mile most days now. Still usually in increments of 1/4 or 1/2 mile, but I also walk 3/4 mile without counting the blocks, and 1/2 mile feels easy now ("oh, I'm almost home already!") where before I was usually like "ok, four more blocks, three, two, one, home". Most of the time I either don't have symptoms, don't notice them, or I notice them but they're not too bothersome, but any stressful situation will kick them up a notch (though I'm finally noticing that correlation right away). Related to my fear visions, I'm still inordinately worried about moving from flat to uneven terrain. I'm planning to go to Hawaii next month, and already thinking of "oh, I won't be able to/ready to hike". So the fear monster is for sure still there, just farther beyond the next bend. But I guess if I keep pushing him further away, he will eventually be so far away that I won't worry much.