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Day 11 'FEAR' + 'Awareness by Anthony De Mello' - only loosely following prompts

Discussion in 'Structured Educational Program' started by spiritualityscienceslay, Mar 3, 2017.

  1. I think im into day 11 of the program -- trying to turn down, or rather 'release' my perfectionism by following the structured program completely by the book.

    But i feel so wonderful. even went for a run the other day! I have a picture of the daily reminders as my phone lock screen, and try to type or read them aloud at least once a day. when i do, i literally feel blood rushing back to certain body parts. it's borderline magical!

    whats also interesting to me is how powerful (albeit challenging) 'unlearning' all the structural diagnosis is. when i consciously note any physical action of mine that was previously governed by a 'structural' diagnosis, i feel blood rush back as well!

    i'm also realizing just HOW MUCH FEAR i was repressing. i thought i was dealing with it by ignoring it and pushing past it. but i now find myself embracing fearful thoughts walking down the street. blood will rush back to the tendons in my neck. as im TYPING THIS i feel blood rush through the base of my neck where there was previously pain. im flabbergasted.

    I also felt blood rush back whilst reading one of my favorite spiritual books "Awareness - Anthony de Mello" -- specifically session #6 was really helpful yesterday -- it's about waking up to demons and seeing through, rather than renouncing.

    This book has come in handy throughout so many periods in my life -- the best about unlearning I have brought across my 'awareness'.
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    JanAtheCPA Beloved Grand Eagle

    Awesome post, awesome progress, and I LOVE this:


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