The last time I exercised was probably in May, about a month and a half ago. I had been doing a core strengthening program that a personal trainer friend of mine gave to try to help with my pain. This was before I knew anything about TMS. The workout was actually giving me some relief, not consistently but it was helping. It also helped to get me out of the house. I am self employed so I spend a lot of time alone at home. I think that's been a huge part of why I developed symptoms, I feel alone all day. I haven't worked out since because I had a pretty bad flare up and didn't think I could. I honestly think that now I am afraid to go to the gym because the pain has been so bad lately. I used to love exercising. In fact before all of my back troubles started I was in the best shape of my life. I had lost 30lbs and my endurance was great. I felt really healthy then boom, back pain so bad I couldn't walk. I really miss exercising and feeling healthy. I've put on so much weight since I have been dealing with pain. I feel twice my age. I'm very glad to have found the TMS diagnosis and I like that I'm being encouraged by everything I have read to get physically active again. But a big part of me is just plain scared. I've been terrified of my pain for so long now that it feels normal to me. It's a cycle I have to break. I am hoping that this week I can start with some mild exercise, maybe a light jog or a little time on the spin bike. Just telling myself that it will all be ok!