Hi Richsimm -
I relate to and understand what you are experiencing. It's like the brain is on overload - not only are you taking in new information learning about TMS and trying to "undo" everything you have learned your whole life from conventional docs, media, etc. But you are also now exploring and digging in to learn all about yourself in ways you didn't know existed. Oh, and not to mention the distraction and anguish of coping with your physical pain and circumstances. It's exhausting!
I've been doing this since early February and it is the most difficult and most exhausting process I've ever gone through (but totally worth it). I found that taking a temporary mental break now and then is both welcome and necessary. Just short - maybe take a day or two off and relax your mind. Just be careful that your brain/mind isn't trying to use the 'exhaustion' to distract you from focusing on TMS - it can be tricky that way. I found that my TMS mind tries to keep me distracted with playing just one more round of Candy Crush, or shopping online, or responding to emails, or checking the news on my phone. When really I know that I should be pulling out my laptop and going on the forum, journaling, reading my TMS books, etc - but my mind tries to distract me with these other focal points. Just make sure that if you take a mental break that it is for the right reasons - and then just get back to healing after your break!
But even with the mental break, it is important to at least go through Dr. Sarno's 12 steps to becoming pain-free EVERY DAY - just devote a few minutes at the very least to go over and ponder these. Gotta work on sinking this information deep down into the stubborn parts of our brain until it sticks!
DR. SARNO'S 12 DAILY REMINDERS:
1.The pain is due to TMS,not to a structural abnormality
2.The direct reason for the pain is mild oxygen deprivation
3.TMS is a harmless condition caused by my repressed emotions
4.The principal emotion is my repressed ANGER
5.TMS exists only to distract my attentions from the emotions
6.Since my back is basically normal there is nothing to fear
7.Therefore,physical activity is not dangerous
8.And I MUST resume all normal physical activity
9.I will not be concerned or intimidated by the pain
10.I will shift my attention from pain to the emotional issues
11.I intend to be in control-NOT my subconscious mind
12.I must think Psychological at all times,NOT physical.