I am a psychotherapist and I often work with folks battling addictions. I am struck by how confining some people feel about the standard addiction narrative' "I will always be an addict; I have to recover in exactly the way the experts tell me or I will relapse." I believe that the narrative becomes self-fulfilling prophecy. So the analogy to addiction is clear because I accepted a narrative that said that pain is the new normal, and will always be part of who I am. My brain is addicted to pain. I also think I am addicted to insomnia, and using ambien to help me zone out the pain and sleep well. The last thing I want to give up is my Icy Hot. I know it increases blood flow to the tense areas, and is a useful placebo. When I sit in private practice listening to clients, my own inner state of tension can be unbearable. It goes together with pain. When the last client leaves my office, I find myself needing to lie down on the floor. My breating becomes shallow. This year I have been cutting back my hours, and planning a teaching project that will be fun for me. I am starting to feel a great release in the process of beginning this structured plan. My exacting self wonders that if I skip around a bit, or don't do it exactly as laid out, that I will fail. I don't treat my clients this way; I don't say there is only one way to go about recovering. Is it OK if I adapt the structured program? I need to work on moving. After 3 years, I can no longer touch my toes! Thank you for listening.