Last June (2012) was the first time I gave serious consideration to my pain stemming from the brain rather than from a physical defect. Since that time, I've come fully around and believe I accept the TMS diagnosis. Unfortunately, while I say that I fully accept my diagnosis, it doesn't appear that I have. After reading through some of Dr. Gordan's work on this site, it seems that I've accepted it intellectually (and even logically) but not on a deeper level. This too makes sense to me. I think one of the reasons it is difficult for me to accept the diagnosis, is that I am in an incredibly stressful work environment on a day-to-day basis. I'm not sure how this works, but it seems that this isn't an ideal way to overcome TMS. My job is actually designed to illicit a stress response from me and in those moments when the pain arrives, it can be very difficult to fully calm myself down or escape from the pain. I've been doing a lot of self talk and I've noticed it helps calm some of the more extreme reactions such as elevated heart rate, shortness of breath, and sweating. This is great. But it doesn't help the back pain, at least not yet. All of the success stories really give me hope, which is something I haven't had in a really long time.