Endless luke
Well known member
What part of this program do you find the most helpful?
Getting some feedback that some of the difficult experiences that I had were in fact difficult and would cause problems was valuable. I'm finding this question a little weird because the text we are supposed to read today contains this line: I think most of us have had to overcome our tendency of judging ourselves. Yet how can I answer this question without asking myself how I've progressed?
I am uncertain that the SEP is causing a transformation. I'm just trying to complete it faithfully.
Dear fear, why do you haunt me?
Me: I've got to get beyond you. I've been saddled with you for so many years. Fear that I won't get better. Fear that I won't be respected, that I'll be abandoned, that nothing will ever work out. You're there all the time.
Fear: Yes. And everything I say could be true. Your life could be about to collapse. What will you do when the money runs out? And you certainly have been abandoned many times.
Me: But it's never been as bad as you've led me to believe. I've never gone homeless. I've always had resources- always been able to eat and have a roof over my head. That has been one of my main concerns and you've always been wrong about it.
Fear: So far.
Me: Yet it's you that causes these worries to be a possibility. If I wasn't held down by you my financial and living situations would be much more secure. You aren't the result but the cause.
Fear: Cause or result- you still can't get away.
Me: I'm making steps. Playing sports has shown me that I can handle much more than I think I can. It's just a matter of me continuing to do what I'm doing and I'll vanquish you.
Fear: Do you remember two months ago how crippled you felt? You could hardly walk or concentrate when I was hitting you so badly. Don't you remember how you thought that there must be an infinite amount of me stored up?
Me: I do but it passed. I no longer feel that way. Luckily, I'm just getting tired of you. I've realized that no matter how bad life _might_ become it's not worthy carrying you around to prevent it. I just have to do the best I can each day and hope it all works out. Which it seems to be doing.
Fear: Even if it does all work out you are going to get old and infirm. There's no winning in this life- no safety. You will end up in a home with your body failing- surfing technology websites and feeling like the world has neglected you.
Me: Probably. It's hard to avoid that getting old is a long and unpleasant experience but I have a long time before then. In the meantime I'm putting you aside.
Getting some feedback that some of the difficult experiences that I had were in fact difficult and would cause problems was valuable. I'm finding this question a little weird because the text we are supposed to read today contains this line: I think most of us have had to overcome our tendency of judging ourselves. Yet how can I answer this question without asking myself how I've progressed?
I am uncertain that the SEP is causing a transformation. I'm just trying to complete it faithfully.
Dear fear, why do you haunt me?
Me: I've got to get beyond you. I've been saddled with you for so many years. Fear that I won't get better. Fear that I won't be respected, that I'll be abandoned, that nothing will ever work out. You're there all the time.
Fear: Yes. And everything I say could be true. Your life could be about to collapse. What will you do when the money runs out? And you certainly have been abandoned many times.
Me: But it's never been as bad as you've led me to believe. I've never gone homeless. I've always had resources- always been able to eat and have a roof over my head. That has been one of my main concerns and you've always been wrong about it.
Fear: So far.
Me: Yet it's you that causes these worries to be a possibility. If I wasn't held down by you my financial and living situations would be much more secure. You aren't the result but the cause.
Fear: Cause or result- you still can't get away.
Me: I'm making steps. Playing sports has shown me that I can handle much more than I think I can. It's just a matter of me continuing to do what I'm doing and I'll vanquish you.
Fear: Do you remember two months ago how crippled you felt? You could hardly walk or concentrate when I was hitting you so badly. Don't you remember how you thought that there must be an infinite amount of me stored up?
Me: I do but it passed. I no longer feel that way. Luckily, I'm just getting tired of you. I've realized that no matter how bad life _might_ become it's not worthy carrying you around to prevent it. I just have to do the best I can each day and hope it all works out. Which it seems to be doing.
Fear: Even if it does all work out you are going to get old and infirm. There's no winning in this life- no safety. You will end up in a home with your body failing- surfing technology websites and feeling like the world has neglected you.
Me: Probably. It's hard to avoid that getting old is a long and unpleasant experience but I have a long time before then. In the meantime I'm putting you aside.
