I'm on day 8 of the structured program. This is where I am at: I've had a lot of successes resuming my physical daily activities. (Bending, picking my son up, moving without restriction, stretching etc). What I have noticed is I still have a lot of pain that I have to work through. I was initially hoping the pain would resolve faster (like every tmser I want results!) but I get that mobility is huge and I knew from the onset that my tsm was pervasive. It's going to take a lot of reconditioning. A lot of retraining my brain and body. And....that's okay. I accept that of myself. I'm learning to love myself and accept that I can't go into this recovery journey the way I got here. What I will say about my pain is that it's moving all over my body and doesn't stay in one spot long. I'm onto you tms. I'm instead replacing my thoughts and fears about pain with self checkins. A lot of them. So many in fact that by 2pm I'm exhausted. But I get that's another distraction my body is trying to use. I just go on. Because I deserve this. I'm learning to meditate. Yesterday I found a few moments of peace inside myself which I hadn't felt in years. I deserve to feel that everyday. I used to think that the fight in me served me well, that it was my survival. I get it now. I didn't survive because of that need to do things perfectly. I survived because of all of my other wonder traits. The fact that I am loving, my strength, my ambition, the knowing I deserved something MORE than what I got from my childhood. Those things helped me survive. I'm my survival. I choose to be powerful, not powerless. I choose to not be afraid all the time. I deserve that. I am safe with myself. Warm regards. Crissy Ps. I attached a photo of where I meditated yesterday. Nature is incredible.