While I have only been doing the TMS structured program for 1 week, I can see changes in the level of pain I am having. I still have pretty terrible pain some days and at some times, but often just participating in this program helps to bring the pain down to a manageable level. Its extremely difficult for me to get well at this moment because I had a really bad experience with my husband about 2 months ago. He says he is genuinely sorry but he still kind of tends to justify the situation which scares me. I want to have the same feelings for him I used to have and we are going to therapy but I don't know if I can. I guess God will have to work on my heart or either let me know clearly that its time to move on. Either way, this is one of the most difficult times in my life emotionally. I had 3 whammies back to back with Nursing School, then an insane Cipro reaction which kicked off the TMS 18 months ago, and then this stuff with my husband. I feel as if I can get better under these circumstances, I will be able to face whatever else comes my way in the future without my pain ever getting as bad as it has been. Maybe I'm being naive, maybe there will be worse to come in my life, but I can't dwell on that. All I can do is continue to do the work, try to check in with myself and hope for a better tomorrow. I do think once the issues with my husband are settled one way or the other, it will be a huge weight off of my shoulders and will help the pain tremendously. However I can still work on it now and help myself now because I do not have to let circumstances dictate my quality of life. I am so thankful for finding this program and for all of you who understand and support me and each other in this journey.