I'm going through the program reading as much as I can the same time but my pain is much worse! Not only it's moving around but also I have new symptoms like pain in the bottom or needle sensations in my hands. This scares me even more, maybe I have another herniated disc in my neck as well and it's pushing on the nerve? I'm also tierd and scared, what if ti will never go away.... I can't live like this!!! I want to be happy, have another baby, enjoy my work! I realized that pain is protecting me from being myself. Just a few weeks ago my mind was focus so much on looking for bad things in people around me. That my colleagues are mean to me and my boss is giving me the worse schedule in the world and its not fair. Those thoughts were in brain on and on all the time. If I got mad on my neighbor for stupid thing that she did and wasn't even aware of my anger I could go around this all day long, all night in my head. Creating imaginary dialogs with them, how I'll tell them off, repeating the situation on and on. Now when my back pain is so bad for the last 3 weeks I realize it's started when I went to my boss and argued about the schedule which was very stupid and I should never do that. She is trying very hard to make iT work for all of us in the departement and maybe I do hardest job and get the worse hours this month but I'm the newest in the team and have the least amount ot technical recalls in whole departament. So maybe that's why she put me in this position. But instead of thinking about this I went and told her that I'll leave if the schedule will be like that in next month. That was stupid. Very stupid. I don't know why I did that. I should just shut my moth and don't complain like every one of us, every on in my depertament was at some point in this situation. Exactly since that time my pain is worse and worse. It makes sense, instead of being obsessed with conspiracy and meanness form other people I nearly can walk and cry every day that I can't do it any more. It that what I wanted, ended up with pain even on weekends, almost every hours? Think about the pain first thing in the morning, and the last thing before I'll fall asleep? Even I dream about it. Just few weeks ago I was able to go 4-5 days without pain. Now it's maybe 3-4 hours. But at least I don't think how mean my neighbor is, how my boss is trying to put me down...At least now I'm thinking about my back, where is the pain now, why it is there, where it will be in an hour, what if I'll be in pain again tomorrow, why the pain is there, did I eat something that? ALL DAY LONG! It this normal to have such an increase in pain once the program starts? I was expecting the opposite.