Hey everyone, I wanted to update my recent progress, if I can call it that way. So Im still reading about TMS and I’m kind of getting the point how Sarno and others think it’s working. Still I’m not convinced that all my pain is from my psyche yet. It is a big nut to crack after all that physio and so on.. I was reading those articles from day 2 and 3 from SEP and they are pretty good source of information, even they are a bit old school though? Well I guess if Sarnos method worked 20 years ago, it means it can work today . I also started my journal and I have to admit, it is difficult for me to think about how the life without TMS would be (because I’m not sure if all my troubles are TMS), or what are three things making me sad (not such a problem with anger). Anyway in the end I found something, and the biggest benefit of it is that one have to stop and think about himself. So hopefully I will find some time this week for my journal again.. One question about journal, do you share it with your partners / close friends? Do you tell them you are actually journaling, or you keep it secret? Right now I didn’t tell to my girlfriend anything about it yet.. I’m also trying to be very active. I was rollerblading three times last week (I’m just learning, it’s fun, but I’m not super talented). I felt once (Thursday) and heard pretty nice crack in my left hip. It was painful of course, but I didn’t take care about it too much. The day after I was gardening – digging, hoeing. So a lot of hard work, I didn’t feel my hip during the work, but after I finished I was exhausted.. I was barely able to move my left leg and my arm, shoulder and neck was in fire. I was trying to tell myself it is just my head causing this, but with no big results. The day after I had to travel by train to another city and I was shopping with my girlfriend all day. My neck was stiff and hip painful, but I somehow managed to not focus on it too much and did the 7 hour shopping torture (I had to, as I needed some stuff for upcoming holiday). Sunday was a rest day and it healed me well. I still was feeling pain, but my hip was much better (thanks I didn’t focus on it too much) and my neck was a little bit looser. I had time to calm and relax. Yesterday I was feeling much better, so I decided to go mountain biking. It was for a first time this year. Mountain biking was causing me trouble for my last two years, that’s why I don’t do it much at this time. It makes me feel pain in my neck and shoulder with my palm as well and it can be pretty bad, sometimes I’m also having pain in my right knee. Anyway I jumped on my bike and start my trail. I did a first uphill in the forest, heartrate up in high, than down and up again like a rollercoaster . I love biking in the hills. Continued like this for about 8 km. About this time I started to feel my neck and shoulder blade. I calmed down, stopped, did some stretching and (I think more important) I did some soothing meditation. It was really quick one, just trying to focus on my breath how it flows through my body, telling myself that there is no need to stress – and it helped! Pain was gone. I thought I will have to quit earlier, but I did another 10 km. In the evening I felt it again a little, but nothing crazy bad. Plus I did one hour of drawing – which might add more pain as that is another trigger I know about.. Anyway today I feel my neck just a little, after 20 km of bike ride and drawing. My palm is a little bit more tender, but not that bad. Again, I try not to focus on it a lot. Maybe I will do some pain dissolving meditation later today, which is opposite approach- you focus directly on pain and you try to breath it out. As I said before, I’m not 100% convinced that all my pain is TMS, but part of it is coming from my head. That’s for sure!