bluealchemy
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Starting this out by saying - my original low back pain has diminished by 90% of what it was. But it's creeping back a bit.
There were days where I felt zero pain, or a whisper every once in a while through out the day. Now that it's creeping back, it's more of a general ache in the whole area, less sharp in that one specific point on the left. But that's how it all began the first time.
Throwing myself into physical activity has been the biggest difference in my life.
My TMS journey began with what I thought was a hip injury from a jiu jitsu class.
Since then - I have very much desired to re enter that sport.
Well - I finally have! I've been grappling at an MMA gym a few times a week. I LOVE it.
The only issue is - when I start to learn something new, I get a little obsessive.
As a result, now that I can do this activity again, I'm training obsessively. On days I don't go to the gym, I'm making sure I"m doing some form of strength training, eating the right protein rich diet, and all the things that will ensure I learn this sport quickly and efficiently. I wonder if it is the activity itself or the obsession with the activity that is causing re-emergence.
My back pain is creeping in. It's a little different this time though. More of a generalized ache. Not as much of a dagger on the same spot on the left side, but still originating from the same spot... Naturally, my brain makes the association between this new back pain and the wrestling that I'm doing.. Which involves getting twisted in all sorts of way, all kinds of weird hip twists and pivots, and weight bearing on the back. Like, I'm literally getting my ass handed to me every time I wrestle because I am a complete novice.
I don't want to quit martial arts. But I honestly am nervous that it could be making things worse.
I know you can point to where I am on a map - that "fear of activity" can create recurrences.
This sport is pretty much traditionally the most harmful sport on the joints in the body, so it is a big hurdle to overcome the fear that getting twisted into weird shapes and headlocks everyday isn't causing the re-emergence.
Whether it is the sport itself, or my obsession perfectionism with it creeping back in.. I'm hoping for some opinions on how to proceed.
There were days where I felt zero pain, or a whisper every once in a while through out the day. Now that it's creeping back, it's more of a general ache in the whole area, less sharp in that one specific point on the left. But that's how it all began the first time.
Throwing myself into physical activity has been the biggest difference in my life.
My TMS journey began with what I thought was a hip injury from a jiu jitsu class.
Since then - I have very much desired to re enter that sport.
Well - I finally have! I've been grappling at an MMA gym a few times a week. I LOVE it.
The only issue is - when I start to learn something new, I get a little obsessive.
As a result, now that I can do this activity again, I'm training obsessively. On days I don't go to the gym, I'm making sure I"m doing some form of strength training, eating the right protein rich diet, and all the things that will ensure I learn this sport quickly and efficiently. I wonder if it is the activity itself or the obsession with the activity that is causing re-emergence.
My back pain is creeping in. It's a little different this time though. More of a generalized ache. Not as much of a dagger on the same spot on the left side, but still originating from the same spot... Naturally, my brain makes the association between this new back pain and the wrestling that I'm doing.. Which involves getting twisted in all sorts of way, all kinds of weird hip twists and pivots, and weight bearing on the back. Like, I'm literally getting my ass handed to me every time I wrestle because I am a complete novice.
I don't want to quit martial arts. But I honestly am nervous that it could be making things worse.
I know you can point to where I am on a map - that "fear of activity" can create recurrences.
This sport is pretty much traditionally the most harmful sport on the joints in the body, so it is a big hurdle to overcome the fear that getting twisted into weird shapes and headlocks everyday isn't causing the re-emergence.
Whether it is the sport itself, or my obsession perfectionism with it creeping back in.. I'm hoping for some opinions on how to proceed.
I'm also going to work on reframing how epic it is that I've come this far in 3 weeks and have gratitude for that! And also add that to my evidence list of reasons why this is totally psychological!
