Yesterday i spent most of the day in pain during an excruciating day trip. My friend L did not want spend the night for this trip. She would rather spend her vacation time helping her ex husband (who is remarried!) paint a storage unit than spend some fun time with a friend. So if I wanted to do anything with anybody during my vacation I would have to accept what she wanted to do which was a day trip. L and I went on the day trip yesterday (with me driving over about 150 miles each way) and I can't really say it was fun. I had sciatica all day long and I know it was because I was really mad, frustrated, and sad. It was too far to drive for a day trip. I of course had to drive because all of her cars are either antiques or too old to rely on. I was gone about 12 hours and spent more than half of it driving to pick her up and to savannah and then dropped her off and headed home. That only left a few hours in 96 degree heat and there was too much to do and see. I thought it would be too much for one day and I was right. At least for me anyway. Probably didn't bother L a bit and she is undoubtedly painting concrete block with the ex today. I knew I had to hide my frustration and anger. so instead I think I was trying my best to have fun but it was hot and I could not relax because I knew I had a long drive home. And I had sciatica ALL DAY. The good news is that I knew I should be better today and I am. Just some pain as I am typing all of this. More affirmation that it's TMS. Now HOW DO I MAKE IT STOP WHEN I AM STUCK IN A SITUATION WHERE I HAVE TO PRETEND AND AM FORCED TO REPRESS MY FEELINGS???