Day 2 Day 2: the correlation

[jwiles]

When my pain first began I remember months before I was just coming out of a long stretch of anxiety and panic issues. They never really went away when the pain began but my pain became a bigger distraction. When I finally began to recover from my pain 4-5 months the anxiety and panic came back hard. I ended up in the ER and this all became a downward spiral for me. I won't get into great detail now but might later. Well as the anxiety died down the last two months the pain has slowly come back. There is a connection here but I can see it completely yet.

Three things that make me feel angry are:
Responsibility
Failure
Uncertainty

Three things that make me feel sad are:
Mortality
Jealousy
Guilt

 

[Stella]

You have come to the right place. And sure hit the nail on the head for some of the TMS emotions.

Guilt is huge for creating pain in the body. I have learned from this program so much about guilt.

I remember a particular situation where I had 100% "responsibility" for 2 very sick parents. I was so angry at the turn my life had taken. I told my husband "I wish my parents were dead. Then I said aren't i a horrible person for thinking this? "

Well no, I am not a horrible person. I am a completely normal person. Many feel this way but never admit it because it sounds so awful.

Welcome to an unbelievable experience.