I keep taking mental breaks from this forum because of overwhelm and needing to turn my mind off when I get home from work. Todays reading was good. I keep wondering if there's any way I can speed up the process - maybe my impatience is adding to my anxiety. That would make since. I wrote about what stressors i'm facing right now in general, and in truth, there aren't that many. That made me happy. My list is getting shorter!! The question for today asked about whether i've been telling people about my TMS diagnosis. Nope. Not really. I told one person. A few people i've told that i'm working through some emotional things that could be related to it knowing that will help, but I haven't labeled it TMS to them or anything. It just seems easier not to go into details. I am also afraid of skepticism and how that will effect my healing. I don't feel prepared to hear others negativity or doubt around this diagnosis, because I'm afraid it will weaken my resolve. I still hear in my head a lot, "well, surgery's always an option" and then I remind myself it's not my body so surgery would be pointless. I'm also wondering if starting the physical activity will help the process along. I went walk-running for the first time the other day! It felt great. But it's really the only physical activity other than some home yoga (2x) that i've done in probably the three weeks since starting this. I get paid tomorrow - my first real paycheck in over a year! SO, if I have the funds, i'm going to put some money aside to do some yoga in a studio at least 1x a week. I'm really looking forward to it. How is everyone else doing?? I was driving home last night (one of my triggers) and noticed sharp searing (sp?) pain that I haven't felt for a long time. But I was oddly detached from it. Like, "oh, that's interesting". I also noticed I was getting a lot of headaches. Is this what they mean by the pain changing?