JohnnyWindtunnel
Peer Supporter
The first step in doing this involves making a thread post about where you are right now in your treatment. Write a short post about the level of acceptance you have of the TMS diagnosis, and of any doubts or worries you may have at this point.
Hi. I'm Johnny and right now I've just finished reading Sarno's book "The Mindbody Prescription". The personality type Sarno describes is extremely similar to my own: a "do gooder" who puts high levels of pressure on himself, with a high level of internal hostility. I have even had issues with obsessive compulsiveness in the past that occured after a psychological trauma. In childhood, I had asthma that I have believed that I personally cured "by no longer believing in it".
I received the Pfizer vaccine in July 2021 after months of intense pressure from my extended family and wife. I was extremely afraid of the potential effects of the shot and could not preclude that it wasn't at least not tested enough and at worst part of some dangerous conspiracy. I no longer wanted elderly people in my family to be frightened and behave hysterically around me, as they had pre vaccine, so I convinced myself I wanted to take the shot "for them", while clearly my unconscious was not in agreement
Within the day I regretted my decision, because the feelings in my body were "weird". Since than near constant musculo skeletal pain has developed in my chest and some heart palipitations. At one point the pain was intense burning and I could not sit or kay down comfortably for several weeks. Other strange tension like symptoms in my legs, and head aches have come and gone and returned again.
I have tried all kinds treatments to rid myself of the chest pain and palpitations including crainial electro stimulation, tons of supplements, osteopathic muscle manipulation, blood letting, meditation, prescribed medications, praying -- you name it. Few have been paricularly effective (the crainial electrical stimulation did amazingly clear the headaches and night sweats up in a matter of days though tbh).
I have had many blood tests and heart tests and scans including a cardiac MRI. Nothing has been significant, except a low number of palps that can be counted on two hands (said to be normal), and one marker of inflammation my GP said was inconclusive and didn't offer much in the way of assessment. My wife who is a healthcare practioner basically has believed my issues are TMS this entire time, although she is not familiar with the diagnosis specifcally. The osteopath I see believes my "nervous system is frightened" and can't turn itself off, causing the symptoms.
I've come across Sarno's work and very much believe that my personality does fit into his diagnostic category, and it completely makes sense that the vaccine could have played the roll of a Nocebo for me.
Fear of the shot and the world situation and anger at my wife and family are not particularly unconscious though as I am well aware of them, while trying to continue to get along and love them. There were also a number of major social, cultural and political differences that estranged me from the same family members leading up to the vaccination.
The whole situation absolutely, at face value, appears to be tinderbox for TMS, however, I am still a bit afraid that I could have a serious vaccine injury that could be resulting in ongoing damage for me, to be completely honest.
I very much like the 20/20 video and have loved Sarno's book and am waiting another to arrive in the mail. I am hopeful for sure, but also need to be convinced both intellectually and emotionally that what I'm dealing with is TMS. I look forward to giving this program the opportunity to do just that.
Hi. I'm Johnny and right now I've just finished reading Sarno's book "The Mindbody Prescription". The personality type Sarno describes is extremely similar to my own: a "do gooder" who puts high levels of pressure on himself, with a high level of internal hostility. I have even had issues with obsessive compulsiveness in the past that occured after a psychological trauma. In childhood, I had asthma that I have believed that I personally cured "by no longer believing in it".
I received the Pfizer vaccine in July 2021 after months of intense pressure from my extended family and wife. I was extremely afraid of the potential effects of the shot and could not preclude that it wasn't at least not tested enough and at worst part of some dangerous conspiracy. I no longer wanted elderly people in my family to be frightened and behave hysterically around me, as they had pre vaccine, so I convinced myself I wanted to take the shot "for them", while clearly my unconscious was not in agreement
Within the day I regretted my decision, because the feelings in my body were "weird". Since than near constant musculo skeletal pain has developed in my chest and some heart palipitations. At one point the pain was intense burning and I could not sit or kay down comfortably for several weeks. Other strange tension like symptoms in my legs, and head aches have come and gone and returned again.
I have tried all kinds treatments to rid myself of the chest pain and palpitations including crainial electro stimulation, tons of supplements, osteopathic muscle manipulation, blood letting, meditation, prescribed medications, praying -- you name it. Few have been paricularly effective (the crainial electrical stimulation did amazingly clear the headaches and night sweats up in a matter of days though tbh).
I have had many blood tests and heart tests and scans including a cardiac MRI. Nothing has been significant, except a low number of palps that can be counted on two hands (said to be normal), and one marker of inflammation my GP said was inconclusive and didn't offer much in the way of assessment. My wife who is a healthcare practioner basically has believed my issues are TMS this entire time, although she is not familiar with the diagnosis specifcally. The osteopath I see believes my "nervous system is frightened" and can't turn itself off, causing the symptoms.
I've come across Sarno's work and very much believe that my personality does fit into his diagnostic category, and it completely makes sense that the vaccine could have played the roll of a Nocebo for me.
Fear of the shot and the world situation and anger at my wife and family are not particularly unconscious though as I am well aware of them, while trying to continue to get along and love them. There were also a number of major social, cultural and political differences that estranged me from the same family members leading up to the vaccination.
The whole situation absolutely, at face value, appears to be tinderbox for TMS, however, I am still a bit afraid that I could have a serious vaccine injury that could be resulting in ongoing damage for me, to be completely honest.
I very much like the 20/20 video and have loved Sarno's book and am waiting another to arrive in the mail. I am hopeful for sure, but also need to be convinced both intellectually and emotionally that what I'm dealing with is TMS. I look forward to giving this program the opportunity to do just that.
