Hi everyone
This is my first post on this amazing site so I thought I'd start out with a history of my chronic pain (I'll add it to my profile page).
I began having low back pain at 18 (14 years ago). From there the pain and symptoms progressed to include chronic spinal pain, headaches, nerve pain, chronic fatigue, tinnitus etc etc.
I was eventually diagnosed with fibromyalgia and have been on the treatment merry-go-round.
About 9 months ago I was at the gym doing deadlifts as part of my ongoing unsuccessful attempt to 'cure' my back pain. The next day I had swollen and extremely tender lower abdominals. I also became constipated and had sharp pain in both groins.
After 6 months of doctors visits multiple MRI's, CT scan, xrays and ultrasounds they were unable to diagnose anything.
My symptoms progressed to include episodes of numbness down both legs as well as numb testicles and penis. I was absolutely desperate for help.
Through google I found a specialist groin surgeon. I met with the surgeon and had the required scans done. He diagnosed me with bilateral sports hernias (one in each groin). I thought I had found the answer. I was going to be fixed.
For the first six days after surgery I felt great. Obviously I was very sore from the surgery but I thought I had done it!! I was repaired. Unfortunately on day 7 I started feeling my preoperation symptoms returning however now they are worse. I thought the surgery was going to relieve the symptoms not make them worse. I started to panic.
Online I stumbled on pudendal neuralgia and then the pudendal hope forum. I read absolute horror stories from people who sounded just like me. I read about the shocking succes rates of PNE surgery and I felt like my life was over. I then found Ezer's post on pudendal hope which details his amazing recovery. For the first time I felt a slight bit of hope.
I then found the tmswiki and the multitude of success stories. Ezer's recovery story really resonates with me because like me he had invasive surgery which made his symptoms worse yet he was still able to recover.
This is where my problem lies. I fully believe that my chronic back pain, tinnitus, fibro are TMS they all started fot no apparent physical reason. However I'm struggling to accept that my pudendal symptoms are TMS because Im blaming the surgery. Even though the pudendal symptoms were present before the surgery (just not as severe). So basically Im terrified that I have stuffed up any chance of recovering from TMS because I chose to have surgery.
Sorry that my first post is so long and complicated. Once I started writing it all just flowed out.
Thanks
P.s my personality aligns perfectly with TMS
This is my first post on this amazing site so I thought I'd start out with a history of my chronic pain (I'll add it to my profile page).
I began having low back pain at 18 (14 years ago). From there the pain and symptoms progressed to include chronic spinal pain, headaches, nerve pain, chronic fatigue, tinnitus etc etc.
I was eventually diagnosed with fibromyalgia and have been on the treatment merry-go-round.
About 9 months ago I was at the gym doing deadlifts as part of my ongoing unsuccessful attempt to 'cure' my back pain. The next day I had swollen and extremely tender lower abdominals. I also became constipated and had sharp pain in both groins.
After 6 months of doctors visits multiple MRI's, CT scan, xrays and ultrasounds they were unable to diagnose anything.
My symptoms progressed to include episodes of numbness down both legs as well as numb testicles and penis. I was absolutely desperate for help.
Through google I found a specialist groin surgeon. I met with the surgeon and had the required scans done. He diagnosed me with bilateral sports hernias (one in each groin). I thought I had found the answer. I was going to be fixed.
For the first six days after surgery I felt great. Obviously I was very sore from the surgery but I thought I had done it!! I was repaired. Unfortunately on day 7 I started feeling my preoperation symptoms returning however now they are worse. I thought the surgery was going to relieve the symptoms not make them worse. I started to panic.
Online I stumbled on pudendal neuralgia and then the pudendal hope forum. I read absolute horror stories from people who sounded just like me. I read about the shocking succes rates of PNE surgery and I felt like my life was over. I then found Ezer's post on pudendal hope which details his amazing recovery. For the first time I felt a slight bit of hope.
I then found the tmswiki and the multitude of success stories. Ezer's recovery story really resonates with me because like me he had invasive surgery which made his symptoms worse yet he was still able to recover.
This is where my problem lies. I fully believe that my chronic back pain, tinnitus, fibro are TMS they all started fot no apparent physical reason. However I'm struggling to accept that my pudendal symptoms are TMS because Im blaming the surgery. Even though the pudendal symptoms were present before the surgery (just not as severe). So basically Im terrified that I have stuffed up any chance of recovering from TMS because I chose to have surgery.
Sorry that my first post is so long and complicated. Once I started writing it all just flowed out.
Thanks
P.s my personality aligns perfectly with TMS
